It's not meant to be..

This afternoon on our med school blog site a fellow student posted, I will quote her, ".....Either you know the material or you don't. Meant to be a physician or not meant to be. You have to accept it. I dont believe in forcing something that is not suppose to happen..."   I could not believe what I was reading.  There's more to the rant she posted..But, I wanted to address...it's not meant to be, so just accept it."

This made my head start swimming.  Does she not realize that many people have overcome obstacles through forcing the issue?  That's why slavery ended in America.  That's why minorities are allowed an education.  That's why women are allowed to vote.  That's why I can live anywhere I please.  Because someone forced the issue. 

We as Americans have a right to force the issues of injustice, unfair practices, and/or a plea for a second chance.  This is the land of second chances (maybe even 3rd or 4th chances if your willing to go after it).  That's why many groups of people have left their homeland to come to the US to live the American dream of obtaining what they are told they could not have or do elsewhere.  Many of my fellow classmates are from other countries and they have shared with me that when you finish high school you are told what field you can go into.  No choices or second chances given.  Well, this is the United States of America..the land of second chances...

THe only limits in this life are those that you impose on yourself.  Push the limits.  Dream big.  Go where ever you need to go to get what you want out of life.  Take a risk.  Don't ever let fear or intimidation stop you from forcing the issue.  Push with all you have..rest up and then push some more..

I disagree with her statement.  Many people are tricked to believing this fallacy.  In life you are going to have hills and valleys, smooth roads and some bumpy roads, but never loose heart or hope that YOUR DREAM IS OBTAINABLE. 

Know that whatever your heart can conceive, you can achieve.  God will direct your path (prov 3); Do not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart (Gal 6:9). 

So, is it meant to be? Only if you believe it is...All things are possible to him that believes (Mark 9:23)...Keep on BELIEVING...Keep on DREAMING..

Relief....

This morning it seemed the sun was shining a little bit brighter than most of the time...Perhaps, all my anxieties have lifted because I left it all on the field yesterday in my final exam.  Although I was totatly nervous, I feel a did great.  I have this weird anxiety when I sit down at that computer that I've never had prior to medical school.  I went in to the final totally hyped, looking forward to doing AWESOME. I had 3hrs and 38 minutes to complete the exam (174 questions).  So, I was actively participating in the process, then I think I got relaxed..and my time was gone...I was down to 38 minutes with 54 questions to go..this is insane..My neighbor had finished aready....Then I got real nervous that I wasnt going to finish the exam.  So, I picked up the pace, skimming thru questions very nervously.. then with about 25 minutes left in the exam..I get a brain freeze...I could not seem to get to the next block.  As I push the submit button, I kept getting a warning error, that I was submitting my exam with unanswered questions...No, this is not what I was trying to do...the clock is steady ticking....Im building more anxiety....Then I raise my hand for help...I have over 30 questions to go and now my time is at 24 minutes...OH MY GOSH...this is crazy...the first guy couldnt figure it out...the clock...tic tock..tic tock....He had to go get help...Now, Im down to 23 minutes....Then the second guy figured it out....I missed question number 16....So, the exam was just saying I was submitting that particular block with an unanswered question, not the remaining part of the exam was being submitted...Bo' what a RELIEF....So, I went back and answered  #16..now, Im on my way....Down to the last 24 or so questions with 22 minutes to go....I was panicing....

But, in the end, I managed to at least skim thru all questions and make my choice....with 50 seconds left in the exam...NOW, that was FUN....


So, a friend and I spent the next few hours trying to figure out what in the world just happened...we just say at the lunch deck looking at the beautiful water and reflecting, believing, praying, wishing, hoping, all is WELL....This is what we were going thru..the stages of Grief..





Then we went to get pampered...Facials, mani & pedis and we knew everything is GOOD...Life is GOOD...How many people can say that they just finished their first semester of medical school? 
or they even had the opportunity?  So, all in all we are TRULY BLESSED....

Im so glad to be walking in PURPOSE...NOTHNG CAN STOP ME....Im FIGHTING the FIGHT OF FAITH TO WIN...Selah....now that is RELIEF for my soul..

Final Exam TOMORROW..

Oh my gosh...I really should be studying right now...This is crazy....I am having the most terrible time staying focused...What is wrong with me?

I am excited about a few things....1) I am on the verge of finishing my first semester of medical school, 2) I found a lovely apartment on the 3rd try, and 3) I am on my way home for Christmas break in two days.....

I feel like a totally different person today.  I will try to explain.  After three years of preparing for medical school, writing personal statements, taking the MCAT several times, applying to medical schools, then finally getting accepted, I still have a long way to go.  But, I see the victory line.  I see myself growing as a physician.  Im learning so much.  I can't wait to actually put things into practice.  I feel that I am in the right place at the right time.  I am forever grateful for this opportunity to fulfill a dream.  I look back over all the things I've accomplished and right now today...I feel this is the ultimate accomplishment, THE FIGHT...

The first phase, I will call THE DRIVE..the drive to fulfill, the drive to manifest, and the drive to prove I can get into medical school.  Drive and motivation is a great combination.  But, the will to FIGHT and WIN is the ULTIMATE...

Now, the second phase, I will call:  THE FIGHT TO WIN.  Although I've always considered myself as a fighter.  I am fighting the fight of my life...and I have had many in my day, but this one is the ULTIMATE.....On each level in life there is a defining moment, there is a fight that must be won, war that must be conquered.  The Fight with SELF.  The outside forces are temporal, but the internal strength is REAL and FOREVER.   I must draw on my internal stregth to win this fight...I must fight through the fatigue, the lack of sleep, the times of bewilderment and continue on in purpose. 

When the FORCE WITHIN is STRONGER than the force trying to push you back, you WILL MOVE FORWARD. Im glad to say my inner FORCE is mighter than mountains and stronger than the sea. GOD's over powering love for me is PUSHING ME FORWARD...Selah

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First semester of medical school has been an eye opener.  I would never have imagined the work load.  Right now I am preparing for my final exam.  I have to have reviewed over 5200 lecture slides, 400 hours of lectures, and on stop of that, I have to remember the most important concepts, calulations, symptoms and signs..

I think I burned myself out the first three months.  I had no extracurricular activities, no social interactions except in passing and with my son.  And now my focus has diminished.  I went through a horrible ordeal with my housing arrangements...MOLD...and horrible landlord, etc..I had to move the day before my practicals..It was a mess....But, I had to regroup and I mean quickly...a month before semester was ending, I went out to celebrate my birthday....that was the start of turning this ship around.  I attended another social function...That helped break the slump.  Then this week I started working out at the gym.  It's never too late.  Im feeling better now....

So, this coming semester..I see the changes I have to make....I am going to join a couple of clubs on campus, work out at least 3x per week.....gain some BALANCE in life and I WILL WIN THIS FIGHT...

Back to studying...18hrs to go...
Pray for me....

Count DOWN...

WOW......Feeling real good about the end of my first semester of medical school winding up....Life is good....

Had a few moving tasks to complete this morning before I could settle down and study...I'm feeling so much excitement right now, I can't focus....We are in our new apartment, as of today... It feels so good to have a nice bright large apartment.  It is very important to have comfortable surroundings...My mom always talks about how a room with positive energy allows you to sleep better....and to tell the truth you can see and feel the difference.  When you enter a space that is roomy, bright with a lot of windows and clean...It feels good...Well, that's how it is for us, NOW......As I look around our new surroundings, I feel the positive uplifting atmosphere......We are only a 3 minute walk from campus and the grocery store...I'm living in bliss...It's interesting how the small things can put a smile on our faces these days, like hot water, eggs, ground beef, fresh bread, etc...great experience for us....

So, we have about 13 days left in semester one.  Today was the last day of classes.  I haven't been class in months....I am what they call a mediasiter...I watch all lectures via internet.  I found that I get more done in a day than sitting in classes all day...Especially getting personal stuff done around the house, etc.  I just love modern technology.  Starting Thursday we have our Behavior Practical, then Friday a Histology Practical and our last Gross Anatomy Practical..YES...I will celebrate FOR REAL...Well, I've already started celebrating a victorious semester in my mind....Then a 7 day break until our comprehensive final exam....So, the next few days....it's nothing but eat, sleep, and study...then study some more...

Then we are on our way home....for three weeks...LIFE is GOOD....

This is just a small part of my history that Im sharing with you.  Yes, Im making history, my story.... I want you to realize and see that each step and each turn towards your goal is and can be adventurous and exciting or...just more stuff you have to do, blah, blah, blah...  I really don't see my life like that at all. I see my life filled with things that have to be done to live the kind of life I desire and am accustom to living. 

So, as you do you own count down to your SUCCESS...enjoy the ride...These are your good ol' days....live and in color.....Thank God for all the many opportunities that are opening up to you because you are one day closer to your goal...Living Your DREAM..

LIFE IS GOOD..
Now, go live your dream....

Medical Mystery Diagnosis....

Yesterday afternoon I was watching Medical Mystery Diagnosis and recognized a familiar face from the Ross University Medical School website.  It was Dr. Rezak, a fellow Ross graduate.  She and her twin sister graduated from Ross in 2001....WOW, that was so cool and refreshing...Look out Dr. Oz, here I come.....

I would love to be apart of the tv show, "The Doctors"...I used to watch them faithfully at home...switching back and forth between them and Dr. Oz....

Well, the sky is the limit to where I can go and where I am going...Im so excited...trying to get a handle on exactly where I would like to practice will come in time.  I have some ideas in mind...but, Im told you really will not know until you start your clinical rotations to see where you find the right fit. 

There are numerous opportunities for OB/GYN, Family Practice and Internal medicine. The US government have programs where if you practice in an area that there is a shortage of doctors, they will pay you up to $170K for five years to help with repaying your student loans..What a great opportunity, if you want to practice in these specialties.  Initially, I did not, but what a powerful incentative...With about $280K in students loans on the books after med school...cutting them down swiftly looks promising.....

In one of my favorite movies, "Good Will Hunting", the lady interest of Matt Damion said her brain is going to be worth over a quarter of a million dollars by the time she finished med school..I thought to myself wow....and now that is my reality...FUNNY.....

As I was told early on in this quest, dont worry about the investment required.  Look at the return on the investment.  The opportunity is limitedless and plentious.....Anything worth having requires an investment...of time, resources, dedication, etc....That's just the way it is...Enjoy it...look forward to reaping the benefits...

Coming soon...the Dr. Joyce Busch Show....LOL....
All things are possible to them that believe...

Word to the Wise for Parents...

The Ross Housing Database is now open to new students.  I just thought I'd share my experience as a single parent and my current living accommodations.  First let me start by saying, I'm moving in about 9 days.  I thought I was getting a great deal on renting a two bedroom that allowed children and pets.  Well, it was a tough semester not being comfortable at home.  So, I decided to move closer to campus and pay the extra money to be close to the grocery store.  Now, we will be within 3 min from campus with no hills to climb and 3 min from the grocery store.  Im already in heaven....

When looking through the database, make sure if you have children especially small ones that your living arrangements are accommodating for a lot of walking, meaning will they be able to walk the hills.  If you are living in a hilly area and have children with strollers, etc it may be kinda challenging every time you leave your apartment.  I currently live on Banana Trail on a road called Hilltop.  I thought it would be cool to be able to view the ocean from my apartment, etc.  Well, I dont have a view of the ocean from my apartment, but if I walk to the road and look down the hill I can see the ocean...a wonderful view...

The challenging part is getting home everyday...up and down hills is no fun with groceries, a heavy backpack and an eight year old.  But, we did it.  You can order a taxi at $8EC each way.  But, I spend enough on food and eating out..that I had to cut down somewhere..LOL..

Make sure your place has HOT water...It may not have it at your kitchen sink, but you sure want it to work in your shower.  Many nights we had to take cold showers. One good thing about this apartment is we did have a water reservior.  So, we were never without water completely.  For some reason here when it rains, water pressure becomes extremely low or you lose it all together.

Not to sure if you absolutely have to have a place with a generator.  I didnt.  I think we only was without power maybe three times..nothing to be too concerned about for us.  But, if you want a generator you will pay extra...

The places here are very simple.  Don't expect high quality anything, unless you are willing to pay $1600 US per month...To me that is absolutely ridiculous. 

I would suggest to keep it simple.  Shipping barrels and barrels of stuff may be over kill and expensive (I spent over ($600US to ship two barrels) , but ship what you can not live without.  We were told that we needed bug spray for the flying pest.  I brought 6 cans of Off with me...And we have not used it but twice...The mosquitos are not that bad to us.  Normally, at home in the Houston, we would have to spray down every day going out.  But, here it has not been a  problem. (Although, not to sure about the dry season coming up.)

Now, sunblock you will need tons of it.  May sure you bring it with you..it cost anywhere from $35 to $65 EC here....And a good umbrella.

Check to see if your landlord is providing sheets, towels, dishes, coffee pots, toaster, iron, ironing board, etc.  I did not want to bring any of this stuff. 

Storage in our current place was huge problem.  I dont like a lot of stuff hanging around and in our kitchen we only had one wall cabinet, so we did not have any place to store groceries.  My son did not have a closet....I had a very small portable closet.  So, consider all this stuff.

Also, a wonderful service most apartments offer is maid service.  I can't wait to enjoy this service.  My place did not have it.

There are plenty of laundry services around to get your laundry done.  At first, I thought it was too expensive.  So, I tried to do it a couple of times on my own.  But, I just dont have that kind of time.   There aren't any laudromats and most apartments do not have washers or dryers.  This apartment just had working washer and I had to hang dry the clothes.  The washer was convenient with having a boy who like to use a new towel everyday...LOL..

In the midst of all the apartment hunting do not forget why you are here...to finish medical school...So, dont sweat the small stuff too much...hopefully, you can have comfortable living conditions as you pursue your calling.

Enjoy.

Age is just a number...

I've been celebrating this past weekend, it was my birthday...A few of my fellow classmates and I went out for a lobster dinner at a 5 star resort last Saturday night.  I was a blast. I'm so blessed and over joyed to have just turned 42 years old...YAY......I can not even believe I'm that old....I still feel...no more than 30..... and majority of my peers (average age is 24) can not believe my age either...

Feeling very youthful and feeling the need to enjoy something other than studying for a change, I went to a social gathering last night and met a couple of new people....It was fun...I was talking to "a local" (meaning he is from Domonica), he remembered me from the on campus post office.  He is the immigration officer there, that checks all packages that arrive on campus and assess a fee for them.  So, we were joking around about him over charging me for my packages, etc, etc....He made a comment like, I know I look young for my age and you are not even going to be able to guess my age.  I replied, "you will not be able to guess my age."  LOL...So, I played along with the guessing game.  Then he finally told me his age: 29 years old.  Then he said, "Do you consider that old...?" I laughed so hard....I said "NOT REALLY."  At this point I am feeling real good about my youthful appearance...Then I dropped the bomb on him...His eyes almost popped out of his head....LOL...He was speechless...I just laughed and laughed......

I realized that my age is just that, my age.  Nothing to be ashamed about.  Nothing to hide.....Wrapped up in these last 42 yrs, are a lot of life lessons to share, to reflect on and most of all to learn from.  A lot of wonderful experiences and memories.  Moreover, the truth of the matter.....time goes by so fast...But, over all I can say Im pretty pleased with what I have accomplished and where I am now in my life.  I can and am truly walking in BLISS. Glory be to GOD....

So, as we reflect on the things we desire in this life, are we going to be confined/constrained to numbers such as age, MCAT scores, GPA, zip code, bank accounts, etc, etc.  Or are we going to go live beyond the obvious and pursue the unknown?  2 Cor 4:18

I'm learning a positive lesson when it comes to maturing in age, it doesnt really matter what age you are, as long as you are doing what you are suppose to be doing, at this point in time. LIVING ON PURPOSE...

So, don't wait another minute, day, month, or year.  Go, pursue your dreams NOW. Find the love of your life, NOW.  Work in the career you've always dreamed of, NOW.  Live in the neighborhood you've always desire, NOW.  Drive the car you've always wanted, NOW.  Appreciate LIFE, NOW..... TODAY!

I would only pray that my next 42yrs will be filled with LOVE, PEACE, HEALTH, WEALTH, WISDOM, UNDERSTANDING, ABUNDANCE AND MOST OF ALL.....PURPOSE.

LIFE IS GOOD...
NOW, GO LIVE YOUR DREAMS...

Guilty was the final verdict...

After years of speculations, as to the culprit of the Micheal Jackson's death, yesterday Dr. Conrad Murray was found guilty of involuntary manslaughter.  I did not know Dr. Murray personally; however, I have a brief insight to what it took for him to become a doctor and a cardiologist specialist at that. WOW... Dr. Murray without a doubt had to be a man of great intelligence and perservance.  A man focused and dedicated to living out his dream of practicing medicine in several states.  I know this just from the initials he has at the end of his name.  It's a ashame that all his years of hard work and sacrifice have been ruined from one slip of judgement or lapse of moral character.

I know he must have been excited when he was approached to become the King of Pop's personal doctor for a whopping $150,000 per month.  Now, that would excite a dead person...LOL....Think about it, one patient and he will make $1.8 million a year.  Wow. But, there was a deeper problem that was affecting Dr. Murrary.  Im sure he was well capable of taking care of Michael with the best of care.  The man had been practicing for years.  What I think really caught up with him was his flawed character.

I always tell my sons that character and integrity are two of the most valuable traits you can possess.  Your looks, gifts and talents may get you in the door, but your character and integrity will keep you in the door.  These are traits I work on with my eight year son.  I want my sons to understand the importance of being trusted in life, the importance of being men of their word, even to their own hurt.  It's a wonderful thing when a person can trust your word without second guessing or extreme doubt.  I have even gone as far to make them look up the words: trusthworthy, trust, write standards, etc.  So, when I see actions that are contrary to me trusting them I address it immediately.  Alot of time with me, it's not the actual deed that was done, it's that fact that I had more trust in them not to do something that they knew was inappropriate. Take for instance, my oldest son a few years ago totaled out my car and I was angry.  Not to the fact that he had an accident, that's why we have insurance.  But, it was the fact that he had several teenagers in the car with him when he was not suppose to, his license had a 6 months restriction..But, he had three other teenagers in the car with him.  So, after going over with him the important of following the rules and having trust, I think he got the point.

Although most people have been hurt and scared so in life that they have built up walls and feel that don't need anyone.  But the truth of the matter is, we do.  We need each other.  I need people around me that I can trust.  That I do not have to second guess, when it really comes down to the nitty gritty.  Im not talking about a school house mentality on this.  Im talking about real world circumstance, that may arrive, that is between life or death, or even after death.  Will you do what you promised/agreed to even when they are not around or has passed on?  I believe I'm that kind of person.  I know Im that kind of person.  (R.I.P Donald Busch)

So, as I make my transition to becoming a trustworthy doctor, I only pray that my years of decision making: some good and some not so good, will lead and guide me when life threatening decisions arise, I am able to make the right decision concerning my patient, my life and my future as a practicing physician. 

I believe there was a moral flaw in Dr. Murray that was never addressed and dealt with.  It's human to be flawed, but the tradegy is when we do nothing to overcome  them.  There is an innate part of our soul that desires to do good, be good and have what is good.  I truly believe this, but somewhere along the way confusion sat in and less people are seeking to be self aware.  So, our jobs as adults, as teachers, as parents, and future doctors is to seek after that which brings only good in our lives and pursuit it with a passion. 

I was just discussing with my mother the art of making wise choices and decisions.  Early in my life I decided that I did not want to go the path of struggle, pain, and sadness.  I wanted and have traveled the path of least resistance.  Do not confuse the bumps in my path as insignificant, because every bump and every twist has brought me closer to myself.  I'm aware of who I am and what I'm able to accomplish.  My outlook on life is not dictated by the bumps in my path, but the way I have decided (I made a decision), to view them.

So, let's not reflect on Dr. Murray's indiscretions, only pray that his bumps and twist has lead him to a self awareness of his greatness.   He didn't need all the woman, to make himself great...and the sad part about all of that was...HE WAS ALREADY GREAT....Pray for his soul to be saved and delivered from whatever is clouding his judgement.  I know he has it in him to make better decisions than those he made as a caretaker for MJ.  I only pray that in the end....he will come to see clearly....

We all have greatness inside us.  We all have the ability to make decisions that are going to bring good into our lives.  The key to bringing good into your life is to make a lot small decisions early on and learn from them.  Look at your success rate in them.  Change what need to be changed, so you can make better decisions.  It's never too late.  Pray and ask GOD to lead you in the right path.  Follow PEACE.... So, when the BIG DECISION present itself to you, you have the courage, the know how and the will to make the right choice....then GOOD will follow.

Have mercy on us all, as we continue to follow that which is good for our lives. 
GO live your dream!

What can I say...

It has been an intense first semester on campus....Everyone's frantic about our mini 2 exam...Well, today I felt the aftermath of the exam on yesterday, Monday.  Everyone's drained..walking zombies...Im not feeling a whole lot of energy on campus...Good thing Wednesday is a half day and Thursday is a Holiday...We all need some time to rest and recharge our batteries.

One thing I've learned about medical school is, you must check your ego at the door.  Most students in medical school are use to achieving high marks from their study efforts, especially if you spend 8 to12hrs per day studying outside of class, 7 days per week.  Well, that is just not the case in medical school.  There are a few that make the high marks. But, the truth of the matter the majority are praying to make it thru the next block.  Some are dropping out for various reasons...But, I can't focus on them or their reasons for quiting so early in the game. 

Thank God I have a mother with such spiritual wisdom and strength, that no matter how much Im venting, she's always knows exactly what to say to bring me back to what's really REAL.  What Divine directions and confirmations, I received throughout this journey and not to loose the message amongst the mess.  She reminds me GOD's WORD to stand on as my sure foundation. 

As I reflected, on a motivational speech one of my classmates posted to his facebook page, the message was right on time.  The only way you are going to be able to achieve success, your dreams, and/or your goals is to want it just as much as you want your next breath.  Are you willing to make the necessary sacrifices to get what you want out of life? Do you really have what it take or are you just talking?  Do you really believe GOD has called you to a higher purpose in life and getting to that next level requires determination, sacrifice and perservarance?    What can I say....to these questions...ABSOLUTELY YES....

I had to step back, reflect and think on the bears and the lions (like King David) I've slain to get to this point in life.  I had many giants to knock down....and the beauty of it all is, I wasn't alone and it wasn't by my own power, my might, but by the POWER and SPIRIT of GOD that I was able to overcome, to come out not smelling of fire, although I was in the fire.  It was GOD's reassuring PEACE that gave me the strength, even when I was my weakest. 

So, what can I say to this date with DESTINY?  I will conquer all and every obstacle. I have the wisdom to comprend every concept taught.  I will get to the other side.  I am more than a conqueror thru Christ that LOVES me.  I have world overcoming faith residing within me.  I have all that I need pertaining to life and godliness.  I will succeed.  I will accomplish this dream, this goal, this destiny.  I will make the world, my world a better place by putting into actions all the tools I am learning in medical school as a practicing physician.  I am building a foundation of hope for the future, for ALL those that were told there's no way it could happen.

What do I say to this....I am a winner.  I already have the petition (s) I have asked.  I see my future and it contains my fondest dreams and aspirations.  I see my life and all the beauty it contains.  And I sit back at the end of the day and say...."With GOD all things are POSSIBLE to them that BELIEVE."  that's the anthem of my life...

I would have fainted, unless I BELIEVED that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the LIVING. Psm 25:13

Let's go to the other side....

As I reflect on the past 5 weeks of Medical School, it has been an eye opener.  You hear about how challenging medical school is, but you will never really comprehend it until you go through it.  I'm the type of person that believes ALL things are possible to them that BELIEVE.  Whatever, I put my mind to do, I can do with GOD on my side.  If you tell me I can't do something, Im going to prove to you and myself, I CAN.  I'm going to PUSH through the fear of the unknown into PURPOSE and DESTINY.  I believe GOD has called me to a higher calling to complete medical school at the age of 45.  This will be a testament of GOD's grace for me,  His everlasting strength and power, that resides in me.....

So, this is what drives me, this is what's keeping me in this pursuit to get to the other side.  As Jesus, told the disciples (Luke 8:22), "Let's go to the other side..."  This was such a simple and  matter of fact statement.  It did not have any reference of doubt, but a direct statement of ACTION.  Let us go to the the other side.  A statement determinative of Action without doubt or fear.  What was the atmosphere when he made this statement?  Was it sunny and bright?  Was there any sign of a storm coming?  Consequently, as they took action to get to the other side.... a storm came.  This storm was so powerful that it scared those on the boat, that they called out to him, crying that they were perishing.  But, they did not realize who they had on board.  Jesus, rebuked the winds and calmed the seas. 

Then he asked them, "Where is your Faith?"  Good question.  Where is my faith now that I've completed the first block of the most intellectually challenging curriculum of my life.  Am I on solid ground?  Am I shaken?  Absolutely, I am on solid ground, but I was shaken.  Tonight I'm knocking the dents out of my armor.  I'm refining and strengthing my FAITH, in order for me to get to the other side. 

Never in my life I have felt such a challenge.  I'm use to excelling. I'm use to rising to the top, even when I get knocked down.  This is no different.  I must remember that.  This is no different, just a different road I'm on.  Moreover, GOD is still with me.  He has opened doors for me that no man could shut.  So, I must know this deep down inside.  I must go to the other side. 

As I was walking through, my Gross Anatomy Practical today, I had to constantly remind myself of who I am.  I was so overwhelmed with emotions that I had to remind myself that I am not the task in front of me.  I am a woman destined to succeed in medical school.   I am a woman called out to excel in this time and space.  I can have what I say.  Though the winds and the storms are raging. I will BELIEVE and stay in FAITH.  I will trust in GOD, who has never failed me.  I will get to the other side. 

I have faith in my abilities/capabilities.  Faith that the things that I need to improve on will happen, this next Block.  I will attentatively incline my hear to hear what the Spirit is saying to me.  I will quiet myself every morning to regain and restructure my inner peace in order that I my hear.  Let those with an ear, HEAR.  Every answer I need is within.  Every solution I need is within.  I will commit this next Block (#2) to going within and instead totally focusing on the outside.  I will get to the other side.

It's time for me to get back to the basics.  Close out negative voices around me.  Focus on what's REAL..What others are saying is not the TRUTH.  GOD's WORD is the TRUTH.  So, I must restructure my day, my time that I can spiritually grow....With Spiritual strength, I am invincible.  I know who I am.  I must concentration on what's inside of me...so, that I can manifest what I want on the outside...

"I will successfully complete medical school and obtain my desired residency."  This is my determinative statement.  What's yours?

Stamina...Do you have it?

It's Friday night..just waking up from a long nap.  I only had 2 1/2 hrs of sleep the night before...I made a huge mistake Thursday evening and took a 3 1/2 hr nap...and that caused me to stay up til 4am studying.  Crazy...I had to get up at 6:30am to get my son to school on time..This morning was a time I wish he caught the bus or could walk to school alone....I was tired.....But, once I got going, I found energy from somewhere...It was crazy. 

I had a full day, today.  I didn't have time to attend any lectures, so tonight I will be catching up on those. 

• I had to work on a report that was due today at 1pm.  That took the first two hrs of my day. 
• I had to go to my PaCE quiz and review session for two hrs. 
• Then it was time for lunch.  Everyday I have to pick up my son for lunch. (that's the rule of the school, which is sometimes an inconvenience..not that I dont want to each lunch with him, but there is so much to do).  I guess this makes you stop and get away for one hour....
• Problem Base Learning (PBL) for another two hours....This is a group of 8 med students that come together and work on a case.  The objective is to learn how to identify problems and find solutions through research and collaboration with team members.  I'm blessed to be in such a diverse and great group.
• Picked up my son from school, then time to go home...around 3:30pm...

Keep in mind I had to do all this on 2 1/2 hrs of sleep.  Never again...Although I was feeling okay..I learned today in PBL, that I was operating on chronic partial sleep deprevation and it negatively affectes my  hippocampus, the center of memory and emotions of my brain.  Basically, not getting at least 6 to 8 hrs of sleep a night impairs your memory performance....WHO NEEDS THAT IN MEDICAL SCHOOL?  I sure don't.  I need to improve my HIPPOCAMPUS performance...LOL..  If your ability to encode, consolidate and recall is impaired...You are wasting your time...studying all hours of the night....So, lights out at 11:30pm for me....NO Matter what...But, not tonight..LOL...I have a lot of catching up to do....I will sleep in tomorrow..It's Saturday....

So, as I was reflecting what makes a successful medical student, is he/she must have stamina.  Stamina is the ability to sustain prolonged physical or mental effort.  The emphasis is on PROLONGED....The amount of information given to us during this first month was incredible.  We are going to get more and more and more...LOL....The challenge is how to process and managing it.

I hear so many peers saying they are so far behind.  But, in actuality...are they?  Not at all.  You can only study so many hours of the day and really retain the information.  So, is being "behind" that bad.  The bad part is if you are not getting to all the material.  I know we are dealing with a lot of type A personalities that are use to getting A's in most classes, so not mastering a concept is ripping them apart. RELAX...REGROUP...Everything is going to be fine...



As I was preparing to get into my studying, I thought to myself..You really need stamina to make it through medical school. Stamina along with discipline and planning are crucial keys.  Don't get overwhelmed.  Schedule, Schedule, Schedule....That's is so funny.  I use to tell my oldest son that all the time.  I would say, "you can get everything you need to get done in a day as long as you schedule it."  That's how I jungled so many things during my preparation for medical school.    I had everything scheduled, even my free time. I learned that from when I was a realtor in California.  There was a top performer with Century 21 Realtors.  She was awesome.  Everyone wanted to know how she consistently performed well year after year.  And the one thing I remember her saying is, She has a strict schedule.  She even had to schedule her family time.  WOW...it seems very strict.  But, in order to achieve greatness you must be willing to make the necessary sacrifices to achieve it....have a plan and follow it.  Remember, for every sacrifice there is an equal or greater reward...

As you continue on your road to manifesting your dreams/goals check your stamina meter...review your plan...make necessary adjustments...and most importantly...

GO DO IT.....FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD.....

Success is in your hand...

Need I say more....Make it a great day.....

NO LATE SUBMISSIONS ALLOWED.

Okay this afternoon was fun.  Im glad I attended this mandatory session.  I was surprised to find out that it was mandatory. I almost decided to miss and catch it on video.  Boy, I would have been sorry. 

In this session, we got chance to interview a real patient at a local hospital via satellite.  First we observed the attending physician do her preliminary interview.  Then we were allow to ask the patient our own pertinent questions.  The symptoms presented were chest pains.  So, after all the round of fact finding questions, were were left with the data to uncover the problem and find a solution.  Of course, this had to be done at home by 8pm and submited online.  NO LATE SUBMISSIONS ALLOWED.. I was sweating on this one.  I did not get home unitl 5:45pm...I needed to read all the directions, and then submit my findings.  Im glad to say, I push the submit button about 7:45pm.  My first patient report was complete.

I could only imagine how much time this would have taken if I had 20 to 30 patients a day.    But, Im sure like anything with experience comes expertise and making diagnosis will come easier...Hopefully.....It's really amazing, that no two people are a like and doctors everyday have to reason thru why that person has come to see them.  It's a matter of life or no life...if you know what I mean....WOW...

Practicing making sound judgments on a time crunch is like developing a muscle. The more you apply heavy weight, the stronger the muscle becomes.  Now days we all are very busy, managing multiple tasks, but as your reflect on you busy schedule, hectic day, or seemingly increasing workload...Note that you are building muscle.  You are sharpening your skills.  You are moving to the next level.  You are moving towards DESTINY.  Every little step you take.....IS IMPORTANT.....No late submissions: be on time, be dependable, meet your deadlines, plan your day wisely and before you know it, your hard work and determination will pay off.

Life is GOOOOD.... 

Here we go again...

Can you believe it?  I'm just waking up, when most people have gone to bed hours ago.  I think I feel asleep tonight about 8:00pm.  I beat Jamaal in the bed.  Now, Im up and it's 2 am.  It seems my neighbors always get home around 1am.  My neighbors upstairs have no idea of the noise they keep up...but, it's not totally their fault, the walls are too thin in the apartment.  I could hear their every move and their conversations.  I am definitely moving next semester. 

Although I am enjoying our long mile hikes home everyday..up hills , down hills, short cuts and passing our favorite two goats everyday: Vanila and Chocolate..I think those were the names Jamaal gave them, It's become a real adventure carrying groceries home, etc.  Forget about jumping into your car and getting home a quickly as possible.  WE DON'T HAVE A CAR..LOL...I could rent one, but the way they drive here is crazy....and besides I really wanted us to feel the culture here...whatever that means...right?? One thing I know, we are moving closer to campus....

So, I started reviewing the lectures for the next three weeks....OMG....why so many different subjects...?  When I registered for this semester, I thought we were going to have just four classes each systems....WRONG...I didn't know that within each system there are at least 6 to 8 classes, not including PBL, Anatomy labs, Histology Labs, and Behavior/Polycom....CRAZY schedule....So, when they say the program is systems based: know that you are going to be hit with a ton of class dealing with that particular system.  We are still in the fundamentals....until Oct. 7th.....

So, this next segment classes includes: well, it just too many to name...But, here are a few: Enzymes, Connective tissue, Epithelia, Cell signaling, Fertilization, Abnormal chromosomes, Nerve Tissue, Axilla & Brachii Plexus, etc, etc, etc. there's more where these came from...But, I love the way they've group them into categories: Biochem, Anat, Micro Anat, Physiology, Behav, etc.  By the time our next exam gets here we will have had at least 21 different lectures...  crammed into those four to five categories...All with at least 35 pages of lecture notes or more.  My Enzymes lecture 1 & 2, I think is over 126 pages....those are the lecture notes...LOL...One thing I have noticed is you really don't need the books, too much.  The notes are packed with everything you need.  So, I just wasted $1500, right...Well, no???  Well, yeah...LOL...I try to use my books to clarify something, since they are sitting in my face..but I could go the library for that or just email the instructor....I wish someone would have told me that...

On to a more delightful subject.  Every year Ross graduates over 800 (that's a conservative number) new doctors and I know I have everything it takes to finish successfully and then some.  So, with determination and the ability to actively participate with 100% of my efforts, I will be in my graduating class.  I'm already envisioning myself with my robe and that funny looking hat...LOL...I can do this....

Most have heard about it...but, until you actually experience it; WOW, it's an eye opener. 

So, here we go again...different mini...but in the end...all material will be tested together for the final....So, I pray and believe that all pertinent information is retain and I will be able to apply it when needed...

ISN'T LIFE GRAND?
Next level, Please....

The Aftermath....

Well, today was the day to put into action all the information I've been studying the last two weeks.  After only getting 3hrs of sleep, I am pretty please with how I feel about the exam.  I was well prepared.  I would say 80% of the material was something I could remember or heard of before.  So, Im feeling pretty good right now.  Now, the other 20%, Im not going to worry about...but, in hind sight..I shouldn't changed my answers on a couple of questions, I should have review that subject a little bit more...BLAH...BLAH..BLAH...right...LOL

But, the aftermath of the exam has left me feeling pretty optimistic about my performance.  So, I pray that this feeling I have will definitely correlate to my results.  So, for now the next 5 hrs...I have free..Im going to sleep.....Good morning everyone...Make it a great day....

Why Am I here?

Why am I here?  That was a question I heard to day at lunch.  Actually, It was..."at times like this I have to remind myself of why I'm here...I found that to be a very profound and healthy question.  When things get busy and uncertainty raises its head, it is imperative that you step back and regain your focus.  Why am I here?  Why am I choosing to spend the next few years in intense study?  Why I am I not on the beach, enjoying the sunshine or with the ones I love?  It's because there is a GREATER cause within me that demands that I take the necessary actions to get to that CAUSE. 

"When the FORCE WITHIN is STRONGER than the force trying to push you back, you WILL MOVE FORWARD. Im glad to say my inner FORCE is mighter than mountains and stronger than the sea. GOD's over powering love for me is PUSHING ME FORWARD...Selah"   Joyce

So, personal reflection is good.  You must answer this question in order to find stay on course and plant roots in what you believe.  So, Why Am I here?  Why are you here?  This could be a reflection of your purpose in life or your place in time NOW.  Only you can answer that.  If you dont know, you better find out and I mean quickly.  If you know, then you are on the right path towards manifesting.  We were created to manifest the world you desire.  It is possible and it may take some moments of reflection to solidify YOUR CAUSE, YOUR PURPOSE, and YOUR DESTINY. 

Know why you are here?  Because you will be tested.  And when the test comes you will be able to answer with unequivocal assurance. 

I believe people that know the "whys" in life are happier people.  I know I am...

Should I FRET?

As we quickly make it to Hump day, tomorrow..I haven't decided if I should fret about next Monday or not.  Most of my classmate are absolutely terrified.   Monday is our first mini exam.  It's covering a lot of material and we don't know what to expect on the exam.  The major thing about medical school is the questions are geared towards clinical correlations, not what we were used to in undergrad or grad school.  So, making the adjustment to actually apply what we've learned is the key to our success here.

With our long days of class room instruction and our longer nights of studying, Im trying to find the balance.  Take in the most important information only.  So, how do I do that?  Well, this first trial (literally) and error of studying will allow me to make necessary adjustments on next exam, if needed.  The good things is tomorrow, I will get a gauge in my retention at the Pace Quiz.  So, I pray that though I've been drinking from a fire hose for the past two weeks, some water has enter my mouth and has hydrated my body with enough knowledge or the correct knowledge to do well on this exam.

Well, I must say this medical school stuff is a totally different ball game.  But, Im ready for it.  I'm rehearsing all that it took for me to get herein my head.  All the things, I've overcome. and my conclusion is, I have what it takes to make it through successfully. 

There's no victory in worrying...So, I am going to TRUST. Trust that I have everything I need within me.  The scriptures tell us that I have eveything pretaining to life and godliness.

So, should I be panicing..No, I dont think so. When you've done your best and haveput in the necessary time to get a favorable result...You can rest assure that the outcome will be favorable....right?

As you go about your day contemplating are you good enough, can you really do it, take a look at all your past victories.  This task you are on now, will be just like those in your past.  Over and done with as you continue to keep moving and stay in faith.  Move on towards your dreams.  Move towards your goals. Every step you take will lead you into your DESTINY...DONT FRET..JUST BELIEVE....You can do it!

White Coat Ceremony... 9/9/2011

White Coat Ceremony: Live Friday, Sept 9th at 2pm...

It's Official!!!

Intimidation Factor # 2

As the day progressed, I've come to realize that the most powerful form of intimidation is The way you think.  What your mind receives and processes as TRUTH, determines how you see things.  I was very intimidated by the words thrown out at me the first week of orientation.  I almost forgot who I am...How can I loose my identity, based on others preception and their words used.  WOW...I had to regroup and I mean fast.

We use to say as children, "sticks and stones may break my bones; but, your words will never hurt me."  That's good in theory.  But, the fact of the matter is,the influences, the words spoken to you do have a lot to do with how high you fly in life.  I had to catch myself....I'm a woman that has overcome many odds, criticism, misunderstandings to get where I am today.  Im here.  I'm in medical school.  So, all I have to do is apply myself just like I did to get here and I will be successful..

So, look into the way you think,,  How do you view the unknown? Do you know you have what it takes to go after what you want in life.  There are no limits to what you can have.  The only limitations are those we allow to become part of us.

As I was walking out of the gross anatomy lab, I felt a great sense of accomplishment and purpose.  This is what I was born to do.  Although it was my first dissection, I thoroughly enjoyed it.  My team members said, 'You sure are excited."  I replied, "Im excited about most things."  I'M BACK..I could feel it deep down inside...I quickly check my fears at the door and proceed with proficiency and confidence.  I was on point.  The same excitement that drove me to walk in destiny has re-emerged with a vengenace.  I know I can do this.  ...Now, that feels good..

I will control the way my mind thinks.  I choose this day to think highly of my capabilities.  Today I choose to believe that my path has brought me to this point to see how powerful I really am.   I have quoted this poem in other blogs, but it is ringing in my spirit today:

Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

I'm liberated....Thank you Father, for your light shining through me that others may see YOUR good work....The Truth has made me FREE....

The Ball is Rolling......

Okay, today was the first day of MEDICAL SCHOOL FOR ME!!!  Can you believe it?  It's finally here and it feeels GOOD...It's so surreal...I knew I would get here, but never imagine in a foreign country or in the carribean.  I know for sure this is where I'm suppose to be.  ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR MY GOOD.

The day started off with me dropping The Kid off at school.  He was so excited, too.  (I'm glad I instilled in my boys the love of a good education.  Both of them are so excited about embarking on new information and building a foundation that will allow them to make viable choices for their future.  There are no limits when you have the right tools to carve out your DESTINY.  They can't wait to prove to themselves and others, they can learn....and they can achieve their dreams, if they work diligently.)  Then I had to rush to the bus stop for my ride about 5minutes down the road (10 to 15min walk).  I missed the buses and didnt want to wait for the next so, I caught a taxi for $3. 

Arriving to class was cool, it was packed...approximately 400 new medical students ready to learn medicine.  Well, not this first week.  It's mostly review of what I've learned the past three years.  That is mind boggling to me.  But, I must push on...to the deep mysteries of medicine...LOL...

The professors were all very inviting and pleasant.  Im confident that  I will be able to keep up.  The Cell Biology professor was great..very personable and reassuring, Bio Chemistry was okay.  His pace was fast.  Anatomy professor was sharp, confident and you could tell she doesn't take no mess, but, overall pleasant and she moves very fast.  So, guess what Im doing tonight...you guessed it reviewing all todays lectures.

I completely missed my Anatomy lab lecture. As mentioned in previous blogs, I was selected to participate in PaCE and therefore, I had to attend the mandatory meeting for that.  So, I have to definitely review that lecture first....Especially, since tomorrow my group will be the first to do the dissection on the Superficial and Deep back of a cadaver (a corpse).

So, let the studying begin.....The ball is rolling.....

Okay...Almost back to normal...

Okay, almost back to normal.  Just finished our mandatory orientation week.  Alot of good information....Im really impressed with Ross University School of Medicine.  I guess they have over 35yrs of experience at this and they are doing all they can to help make our experience here successful.  There are 400 students in my class and they start semesters 3x per year.  That is huge, when the average med school in US only can accomodate 230 students once per year..  How is this possible?  We are suppose to be more savy than a third world country aren't?  Well, Ross is owned by Devry.  So, I guess that says it all.  They have a lot of student support systems: Academic Success, Student Affairs, PAcE, Campus Life, and Wellness and Success (deals with the whole person: physical, mental and emotional with spiritual balance)..So, everything that is needed to be success is at our disposal.  We just have to use it..

Isn't that true with life?  Whatever you need, it's out there for you to seek out.  There's no excuses.  Especially, in our modern world.  We are so blessed.

So, after I calmed down and received my pep-talks from my support system, those that know me best.  My confidence and normal self is emerging.  After that week of intimidation, I knew I needed some relaxation before school started; so, I had a body massage today.  The therapist had a hard time with my upper shoulders (or medical terms: Trapezius muscle).  She was working hard, elbows and all..LOL...I guess I should start using medical terms to get used to all this.  My first gross anatomy class on Tuesday involves me dissecting a real cadaver.  Ironically, we will dissect the superficial & deep back.  So, I guess this is all in line.  It's funny how all things work together for good...

I met a second semester student that shared with me a lot of information and notes.  So, getting organized is imperative for success.  I have been previewing all my classes for next week.  So, when I go to class it will not feel like Im in a foreign country.  Oh, well I am in a a foreign county..LOL...The first week is just review of the past three years.  Did you get that?...It is only going to take one week to review and go over what I've been studying for the last three years.  That's amazing...Also, I spent thousands of dollar on books and she gave me all the books on pdf form..LOL..So, I know a lot of people did not buy the books.  But, I didnt want to take any chances of not having the information...It's better to be over prepared, right?

As I take a few deep breathes, Im getting back into my previewing...This is my new normal...

Intimidation Factor # 1

Today's orientation started off early, 8:30 am....with the traditional welcomes from all the VIPs...via video conference.  Our main office is in North Brunswick, NJ.  So, alot of our support staff are there.  But, it was engaging none the less.  Our dean, Dr. Joseph Flaherty seems to be in touch with where we are going as a school and what is expected in the workforce from up and coming doctors.  He is a graduate of University of Illinois (the largest med school in US) and had work there in various capacities for the past 35yrs.  So, he comes with years of progress experience.  He was very reassuring of the excellent reputation Ross University School of Medicine has in the work place and has found that many of Ross graduates have achieve high residency placement, even in the most prestigous programs.  Like with any other progam, it mainly depends on the person involved.  What you put into it, is what you will get out of it.

We haven't been on the island one week yet, and already we are being told to start thinking about leaving...LOL...Our short 16months here on the island is going to fly by we are told...So, they started pointing us in the directions we should start considering at the end of our 4th semester.  I know...We just got here..and already we should be thinking about leaving...Well, that is leaving under favorable terms...of course..I was happy to find out that the default site for semester 5 is Miami, FL... Sweet..

Now the intimidation factors:  academic grading and promotion system....Semester schedule and curriculum...the real deal...the meat of it all....As the Associate Dean of Education was running down all the facts, times lines and expectations, my heart starts beating fast...My mind begins to race....It is sooo much stuff to get in order.  I have to get organized early....I have to come up with a study schedule..I have to find a emergency babysitter.....I have to ...I have to...I have to..the list goes on and on...So, I know what I will be doing this weekend...Going over all my syllabus, and getting my scheudle in place.

I shouldn't have a hard time getting my schedule under control because, Im use to a pretty busy and tight schedule.  But, at home, I did have a lot of help..My dear Mother....I begged her to join us...Well, I know everything I need is already provided.  A  way has already been made for me to be successful here.  I know I will meet the right people, get into the right study groups and I will leave here after semester 4, ready continue on. 

So, far Jamaal has been a real trooper.  He has attended every meeting with me and is enjoying every minute of it.  He is really engaged in what is going on. This kid is truly special.  Such great discipline already in his life.  He sat thru all the segments and not one time bug me about going to the bathroom or when is it going to be over, etc, etc...He was just as engaged in the talks as I was..LOL....As they were explaining to us about the white coat ceremony, he noticed in the picture that everyone had on white coats.  He said, "Am I going to be the only person there without a white coat? Can I where one of yours?"  He so wants to be a doctor, too....NOW...Well, I guess he flips back and forth between a police officer and a doctor. God bless you son.  You can be and do all of the above...there are no limits in this life...

Then came time for the introduction to the PaCE program.  I decided to apply.  Although there will be some missed lecture becuase of my obligation to the program, it will allow me to keep a tight schedule.  Because everytime we meet for PaCE a quiz will be given.  Therefore, I would have to be up and current on my studies in order to pass the quizes.  Also, after each quiz there is group discussion on the material.  The one on one faculty input as to any gray areas in the material.  All of this is done before each mini exam....So, when I do get to the exam..I should be well equipped with the necessary information.  And another good part is that those in the PaCE program have off site media viewing of all lectures.  This will help make up the lectures that are missed.

So, that ended our first day of real orientation. 
NOW, it's off to the WELCOME BBQ to mix and mingle...

Just like with any new system, there is a learning curve involved.  In order to effectively shorten that curve preparation is imperative.  Staying on top of things, such as dates and timelines..and most important organization.  One thing they did stress is BALANCE....without it life here will be tough.  I think Im pretty good at balancing things effectively...So, I look forward to a success first semester...

Orientation has begun...

Today was the first official day of orientation.  Not too bad...A lot of down time in between appointments.  I received my school ID and my official white coat.....Okay, this is serious (smiling).  I am officially a medical student.  This is so AMAZING!  Today's events were broken up into two parts: morning and evening.  So, the evening were mini lectures on why we have to attend orientation for the rest of the week, and gave us a little history about Dominica. 

Now, that I have my white coat and student ID, it is official.  I'm in it to win it....During my preparation for medical school, I would actually sit and visualize myself putting on my white coat at the "White Coat Ceremony."  And now the white coat ceremony is schuduled for Sept 9th at 1pm...It will be available for viewing live online.  So, All my family and friends can experience it with me.  If any of you would like to view the ceremony, let me know and I will get you the sign in information.

So, tomorrow's orientation is more detailed about what we should expect this semester.  I will also attend the intro to the PaCE program.  I think Im going to sign up with it.  It will give me some flexibility, which I may need, having my son here with me. 

I like the way they had planned events for us all the way up to the start of class.  Things like tours of campus, tours of the near by cities, waterfalls, whale watching, beach parties, etc.  Im told that once school starts, there's not going to be much time for all of that.  So, we better enjoy it now.....Which I am...

Now, we are getting down to the real deal holyfield....Let the fun begin...

This is truly amazing...

As I am sitting at my computer tonight, it hits me like a ton of bricks....THIS IS TRULY AMAZING...I am living in the Carribean with my 8yr old son...If you would have told me this 10, 5, 3, or even 1 year ago...I would have said, "Really."   But, the experience has been absolutely wonderful...Although school has not started yet, just getting familiar with our newsurroundings is so amazing...

I know I am going to love the atmosphere.  I love the water...I grew up at the beach...swimming, skating, riding bikes, etc.  So, this carribean atmosphere is very rewarding. I feel like Im at home...I feel a tremendous peace within. I'm at the right place at right time...and for that I am forever grateful..

Do you see the rainbow in the picture below...I took this picture today as we were boating around the island...It was a BLAST...

Rainbows are known to symbolize GOD's promises: a convenant of grace...or even some says that they can be considered bridges from earth to a brighter, happier place.....I like all of those references. 

I was in the accompany of some new friends today, but it felt as though we've known each other forever.  So, as we shared our stories of triumph and our hope for the future, I could not help but see how wonderful life really is, when you are pursuing destiny.  All things work together for good.  People come into your life on every level you are on and help pull you up to the next.  Those are the people you should have in your life.  People that desire to see you continue improving, growing and flourishing in life. 

I must say I am blessed to have a tight niche group of supporters that believe in me, my vision, and my dreams. They know I am going to do what I set my heart to...It's funny I was able to chat with a friend yesterday that I havent talked to in a few years. And they were shocked and surprised that Im in Medical School, now.  They said, "You were talking about that a few years ago.  You did it?"  Wow, did they think I was just jaw jacking....

Im glad those that truly know me know, I only say what I mean and do what I say....In order for us to live a TRULY AMAZING LIFE...our words must line up with our actions.  I tell my sons that all the time.  It is an imperative character trait that you must possess. 

Pursue your TRULY AMAZING LIFE....It will manifest...It's never too late..Can you see it?

Overloaded...

I can not believe this...Remember, all the dialogue about what I should bring, what I should ship...Well, the truth of the matter is.....I OVER DID IT....my apartment is not big enough for all the stuff I either brought with us or am waiting for via shipping...LOL...I was concerned that we would be missing something...But, the truth of the matter, most of the things we have in the US are luxury items anyway...So, what in the world do I do with all that stuff in those two barrels that are on the way here that I thought needed?  Well, I guess the snorkeling gear, my printer, and other electronic stuff (clock/CD/radio), wireless router, etc, etc are needed....

The temperature is so lovely here that you dont need heavy blankets (may not need one at all), coats, or sweaters.  So, leave all that stuff at home...The only place you need that stuff is if the A/C is up too high...
The weather is very comfortable.

This a picture that I took on our way to the campus from the airport.  Absolutely Paradise...WOW..

The assistance and/or help was great at the airport.  Ross had representative to greet you in Puerto Rico and then again once you arrived. 

Going through customs was a breeze.  As a matter of fact, once I got to my apartment and hooked up my laptop, I have a new friend request.  The customs agent found me on facebook and wants to be friends.  Is that friendly or is that creepy...LOL...Im not sure how to take that...

I love the fact that I am really close to campus, walking distance.  However, coming home up hill all the way is a bear.  My back side is sore right, now.  Not to mention, this chair at my desk is the worst.  I must purchase another tomorrow.

My apartment was what I expected except it was dirty, the floors, bathroom, etc.  I spent most of the day bleaching everything down.  The apartment manager is really nice.  He has been very accommodating.  By the time we got to our apartment it was 8:30pm and I had nothing to feed Jamaal.  Although Ross had a reception and the Spousal Org, feed us.  He still needed snacks...So, my landlord was able to call the local grocery store and ask the manager if we could come shop after hours.  And guess what...She said YES.....I felt like Michael Jackson or some celeb..that closes down a store to shop...LOL....Well, we got our goodies and back to our modest new home.

I had an early morning IT oreintation, Met one of Jamaal's teachers, then opened my Dominica Bank Account, and purchased a local cell phone...So, now the fun begins...I think we are going to do a Syndicate Falls and Trail trip tomorrow....

Puerto Rico the Reassurance Station

I learned a valuable lesson from my late husband, plan properly and you want have to rush getting checked in at the airport.  This time I took heed to his advise.  We arrive at Houston Intercontinental Airport two hours early.  And a good thing, too.  All my luggage was overweight.  So, I had to purge some things. Thank God my mother hung around and waited...

I just want to take a moment to thank my mother for all her love and devotion over the pass two years.  She is a real soldier.  If you ever need someone on your team thru the storm and rain...She's the one...LOYAL should be her first name...Love you Mother Dearest...

So, I got all the checked luggage down to 50lbs., and me and my little one were off...Starting our new lives, venturing on our new found territory...It feels good...

We touched down in Puerto Rico...staying here overnight at a resort on the beach...The kicker is, the last three days a hurricane was passing by...So, all water activities have been suspended...But, Im just glad to be "closer to my dream"....

Taking the taxi to the hotel was easy and simple.  A porter greeted us at the Airport to help us with our 4 large  bags and 3 carryons..That was great...He took us straight to a van taxi..($5 tip). Our hotel was less than 5miles away...taxi fees $11.50 plus $1 per bag...thats okay..I understand...It was slow that day and he was trying to make it up on me.....I was just glad someone was there to help us with all that heavy luggage..then the bell hop tip ($5)...So, the cost to get us to our hotel room..$28...not bad for two people, right? 

As we walked into our beautiful hotel room, with all the tropical flair, Jamaal looks so sad...Then the tears started flowing...He missed his dog, he missed his brother....MY HEART BROKE....for the first time I felt a little scared.  I didnt want him to be sad about all of this...I want him to be his loving and cheerful self...So, I quickly reassured him that we are going to be fine.  Christian is at college and even if we were still at home...Christian would still be at college.  We will see Christian at Christmas and we will work on getting the dog here as soon as possible.  Perhpas, we can get another dog....BOy, did that lift his spirits...I hugged him tightly..And reassured him, we are going to be fine...then I called my mother....She talked him up...next then I know he was fine..watching Good Luck Charlie...or something like that on Nick..Later that evening, as we walked thru the lobby, he said.."I love this place...I dont ever want to leave."  He just need reassurance...Don't we all sometimes..

Our plane is scheduled to leave for Dominica at noon in the morning...pick up time 9:30am...Now, we are talking...A representative from Ross with be at the airport to greet us...SO, that's cool..then it's off to our new home....Change is good....

Reassurance is defined as the actions of removing someones doubts or fears.  How important is it for you to know you are on the right path in life.  Just as an eight year old boy needed reassurance from his mother.  So, do we as those in pursuit of Destiny.  Though sometimes things are unfamiliar and is the unknown, look to the things, the people, the confidants that can give you a dose of reassurance.  Keep it moving.  You are going in the right direction.  You will reach your destiny if you dont faint. 

Be assured today that your Destiny is sealed.  Your dreams are mainifesting..
Today was a GROWING DAY....

3 Days to go...

All the details for our departure have been taken care of:
Two round trip tickets
Custom papers
Luggage
Best Wishes, etc

Not sure how I feel right now....Im excited that this time is finally here....But, I feel numb...
Im ready to get started..Let's GOOOOO...

What a FEELING.....!!!!

Another early morning for us.  Christian is being dropped off to college.  I thought I was prepared for this ocassion.  I have given him everything I had in me, in order for him to be successful in life.  Now, it is up to him to use what I've given him and all the other positive influences in his life to make his life "SING" the song he chooses. 

As we arrived on campus (early), there were students and parents scrambling around to get settled in the dorms.  The dorms these days look like luxury apartments.  This generation is so blessed.  The university provided volunteers to assist us with all his stuff.  I had to rent a 16' truck to take all of his stuff.  Not that he had enough to fill it up, that was all the trucking company had available.  So, the unloading part only took less than 10 minutes.  This was really cool....Chrisitan is such a delightful kid (young man), I know he will do well.

We decide to go to lunch....before Jamaal and I hit the road.  During lunch I give him several options:
1.  He could bag out now and live with me until he's 50yrs old with no worries, except being a bummmm and very little self respect....
2.  He could bag out now and take the next year to travel and tour the world, then pick this back up in a year,  OR
3.  He could go forward and excell as he has been taught to do, to finish what he started with no excuses.

Like the smart and intelligent young man he is he chose option #1...No, just kidding.  He chose option #3.  He knows he has all the tools needed to accomplish his goals and he feels he is ready to soar.  Now, that's my SON...(SMILE)

So, as we were departing...Jamaal tears started to flow....By the time I made it to the first stop sign on campus, I could not contain my overflowing tears.....You have to be kidding me.  Me crying?  over progress, a step in the right direction...Come on, Joyce...get it together...LOL 

I soon realized that from day one, I took my parenting very serious. I wanted this day to be as joyous and happy for him as any other major accomplish in his life....Also, I wondering what he father would say or do today....I know that his father would be sooooooo PROUD of him...

Christian is an Awesome Young MAN....Many Blessings to him and his endeavors........

Here is a copy of the text he sent me as I was driving:
"Thank you  and I love you, too.. Also, I just wanted to say, I am very thankful to have u in my life.  You have shown me wonderful things and have taught me the sky is the limit.  You are a fantastic mother!!!!"

Now, how can I stop these tears from flowing with a text like this...I almost had to pull over.  As I looked through my rear view mirror...Jamaal tears have turned into a river and he said, "It's the sun in my eyes.."  too funny....I said, something similar when my dear husband was making his transition, "my sinuses are acting up."

These boys are my world...Im am sooo blessed.  What a FEELING!!!!!

5 days and counting...Back to the Original PLAN

Okay, I came up with wonderful idea to keep our shipping of our personal belongings and cost down to a minimum, right?  Well, Im glad that I did.  I just purchased 3 extra large suitcases and began packing.  It was fun and exciting.  Im trying to make sure Jamaal has everything he needs to feel comfortable and at home.  Well, Im packing along side my oldest son, who is going off to college tomorrow.  He's taking more stuff to college than the both of us (Jamaal and I).

Anyway, my garage is a mess with all the stuff spread out everywhere.  It looks like it's going to be a momentous feat to get all this stuff in 3 suitcases. Im actually taking 5 suitcases and 3 carryons.  I hope they let me pay the extra $35 for it....It's a lot cheaper than shipping...As I began, things started clearing out pretty quickly.  All the extra stuff, is going to stay in my garage. So, I deemed a few things unnecessary for this adventure.  So, it all worked out great.  Jamaal would come out to the garage every now and then and say, "Wow, you sure have gotten a lot done."  Im glad he's able to understand what real progress is..action=accomplishment...LOL. 

We began to weigh each suitcase to make sure they were not over 50lbs with this super old scale, that should be in the trash...But, I saw it sitting there, so I thought perhaps it can give me a gauge on weight.  Well, all suitcases were running about 60lbs. How could this be?  Is the scale off or can only go up to 60lbs? To eliminate the excess weight, I decided to get two large boxes and restructure the suitcases and ship the boxes.  Well, as I began shopping around for quotes.  The shipping fees were outrageous.  For two boxes weighing about 30lbs each, it would cost approx. $800.  That is CRAZY....

So, Back to the original plan.  I am going out tomorrow and buying a shipping barrel for $65 and ship it.  The shipping barrel is about 24x24x43. So, I will be able to get all the stuff in the boxes into it and then some.  I found the cost to ship to Dominica around $145 per barrel.  Now, that is reasonable...Actually, the shipping company that Ross recommends only charges $74 per barrel, but the issue is getting the barrel to Miami from here. 

It's funny how sometimes you can plan something in your head, but once you began to put the plan into action things are different.   Is this what they call trial and error?  The things or people that you tried to incorporate into your plans, were really insignificant to you accomplishing your plan.  Or you find out that your original plan works best. Well, proven systems are in place (there's nothing new under the sun) but curiosity and the need to explore sometimes may cause you to take a path that takes a little longer than planned and/or necessary.  This is OKAY.  Because,  the beauty of it all is, you will make it to your destinantion, if you dont give up. 

As you plan you day, week, month, or LIFE, know that sometimes going BACK to THE ORIGINAL plan is okay.  Be Blessed as you move towards DESTINY...

Housing Dilemma

Can you imagine a beautiful summer vacation home in the Carribean?  I could imagine the beautiful bright colors of the decor, a nice summer breeze blowing in my hair as I sit out on my balcony drinking a refreshing drink, listening to some music and enjoying the splendor of the mesmerizing blue waters and enjoying life.  Well, that's something to look forward to, but that's not what our experience is going to be in our new apartment on Dominica.  I have decided to keep everything simple.  It's a very modest 2 bedroom apartment.  A lot of mixed matched furniture, no stainless steel appliances, but they all work.  We are not going to be there forever, just 16 months.  I know it is going to be a cultural shock for my son. But, he is a happy kid and I know he will adjust well.  So, our first semester, I'm going low key.  I've decided to keep my living expensives at a minimal until I get accustom to the atmosphere and establish a monthly budget.  Perhaps, our last semester on the island, I will reward our hard work and effort with a beach front property and live the carribean dream..LOL

We have exactly 9 days before we hit the island of Dominica and I have not received my approved lease from the housing department at Ross.  Should I panic?  Should I be concerned?  No, I dont think so...As I make the necessary arrangements, it is always important to have a contigency plan.  So, I made direct contact with the owner of the property and arranged to close out the deal once I was on the island.  She has assured me that the apartment is ours and no need to worry.  So, if Ross is behind on reveiwing leases, there is shelter for us..LOL...

I decided to take the very minimal stuff with us.  At least the first semester, we are going to be engulfed in establishing systems and exploring our new environment.  Also, I think it will be great to get out of our normal habitat and experience a different culture and different way of life and gain a great appreciation for lavish lifestyle in the US. I already know we are truly bless, now my son will be able to see first hand how blessed he is...

Sometimes in life there are times when the future seems unknown and uncertain.  But, we must always reflect on pass experiences of provision and solutions that were provided.  Worrying and stressing over details will only take away from the beautiful experience you are walking through.  I'm not going to let worry of the unknown take away this most exciting time in our lives.  This has to be one of the most pivotal events of my life and I am going to make sure Im taking in all the beauty it has to offer.  The days may be a little hectic, but at the end of the day, all is well.

How are you handling the dilemmas in your life?  Let the peace of GOD guard your heart and mind thru His Spirit.  There is nothing occuring in your life that can not be solved or will not pass.  Just take a deep breath, ask for guidance and receive the answer.  Then you must act.  The only way dilemmas make their transitions to solutions is to make a decision to act.  Do not sit back and let things happen to you, make things happen for you.  For every dilemma there are at least two solutions...BELIEVE THAT!

NOW, GO DO IT...

Progressive Academic Education Program Invite

Okay...now....it's getting real serious....I am on my way to medical school....WOW...After three interesting years of getting prereqs done...The day is quickly approaching....
My checklist is almost complete....Im just sitting back now...contemplating the atmosphere...

I received an email the other day that started off like this:
"I would first like to congratulate you on your academic performance in preparation for medical studies and your recent admission to Ross University School of Medicine (RUSM). Based on your solid academic record, it is with great pleasure that we invite you to participate in the Progressive Academic Education (PAcE) program.  The PAcE approach gives you greater flexibility, focused small group learning and the opportunity to develop and hone self-directed learning skills – an invaluable asset in your medical career....."

Now, I'm trying to decipher if this is a compliment or are they saying, "look you need all the help that you can get so, you better participate in this"..LOL.. I've been searching the school's website to find out more about the program..But, the information is very vague.  It sounds attractive in the fact that it gives me greater flexibility and more contact with the professors....Greater Flexibility is good, right?

Well, I would like to hit the ground running...So, if the PAcE Program will enhance my academic education then...Im all in.....I wish I could find some current students that are participating in it now.

I will attend the oreintation on Aug 30th to find out more information....this is exciting....Just as I was ending this blog, I found more information: " PAcE is designed to better serve those students who are motivated, self-directed learners.  Invitation to the program is offered to selected students from the incoming class, although enrollment is completely voluntary.  Participants in the PAcE Program study independently and complete the learning objectives at their own pace, but they do meet with faculty regularly to evaluate their progress through weekly quizzes and clinical case studies."

Okay, I guess it is a compliment......But, I'll make that decision on Aug 30th, until then..Keep up the PACE......HaHaHa

What Should I take with us?

Okay, now that my wonderful vacation is over, all that is left is for me is to decide what I am going to take with us....Im at a stand still when it comes to this...Do I take only the minimum which would be clothes, and Jamaal fun stuff..or the whole house and with the kitchen sink?

I am not going to over pack as I normally do.  For our road trip, I packed so much stuff our car was low riding...So, since we will be home every 4months...I think sticking to the basics will do..
I just have to have enough stuff to entertain the little one...

So, I am going to purchase new luggage this weekend...Pack whatever can fit and be done with it...Yeah..That's what I am going to do..I am going to get about 10 suitcases...LOL..just kidding...4 large suitcases and two carryon bags......I'll pay to luggage fee....So, that I dont have to deal with a shipping company...

I called a shipping company today and she stated I would first need to purchase a shipping barrel up to 75 gallons...pack it, then have it picked up and shipped to them..and they would take it from there..Well, I dont feel like doing all of that..I just want to pack my suitcases and go....

What will we need:
CLothes, toiletries, entertainment stuff and that's it right??  Im sure they have food there...We will get use to whatever's available...It's a different way of life...I can't wait...

We are simple people..although we do live a FABULOUS life I must say...But, I'm ready to experience the simple life...I get a real kick out of camping with no electricity, leaving the electronic world behind...Although we all have come acustom to being available every single moment of the day, with our cell phones, now with skype, we can see and talk to people on our cell phones...SO, moving a few thousand of miles away, will only feel like I feel now...My friends and family are only a call away, a skype away,  or a plane away...

So,  Im taking only the basics....When we come home at Christmas break if we need anything extra I will make the necessary adjustments.

KISS: Keep it simple St$%^^

Where's a Gas Station?

Well, the boys and I have been on an 18 day Family Road Trip.  Our last destination, NEW YORK CITY...Before arriving to NYC, we stopped off in Philadelphia for a couple of days to take a look at the Liberty Bell and her crack, try an authentic Philly Cheese Steak and head to the CITY....

Well, since we had been on the road over two weeks the boys needed a hair cut..and I mean bad...So, I search the web to find a Philly Barber that can cut..I found a shop about 45minutes away from us and it was worth the drive....However, little did I know the route we were driving had little to no visible gas stations...As we journeyed on our way, I notice our gas hand was on E and the light was on...So, I said to myself, surely there are gas stations at almost every corner...Right???....Wrong...As we exiting off of the freeway at Lincoln Park Avenue...not a gas station in sight....Lincoln Park Avenue was the entrance to a PARK, the most beautiful scenery imaginable.  The fresh lush green trees, the winding roads...the small town feel was absolutely spectacular....However, inside I was panicing.  I was trying to admire the scenery and relax...But, the road seemed to get longer and longer with more twist and turns...I was SCARED....I should have learned something from my husband.  He would never let the gas hand go below half of a tank...But, me...NO...I like to live on the edge.....Now, here I am with one teenager and an eight year old...Thousands of miles from home and on the verge of running out of gas...this is crazy....

Then finally, I saw someone I could ask for directions to a gas station.  He said, "make a right and keep going straight."  What a relief I thought...I sure hope he's right....Well, we journeyed on about a mile and there it was...TWO BEAUTIFUL GAS STATIONS..  We had our choice to choose...Jamaal screamed, " let go to to the one with food..."  Now, that's just like him...LOL

So, we filled up our tank, grab some snacks...and headed for the barber shop...Incidently the gas station was actually in route to the shop, just about 3miles down the road.  It's funny how sometimes, we can not see what's up the road, but if we continue on the road, it will lead us to exactly what we are looking for...Haven't you found that to be true?  Now, I had directions in my hand, I asked for more directions, and the path that I was to take had everything I needed on it.  Now, that is Divine Provision. 

So, as you journey to work, to the barber shop, to school, to medical school....know this deep within....You have everything you need for the journey.  There may be times when you have to pull over to gas up, grabs some snacks or just ask for reassurance...But, every step, every question, and every motion you take is leading you to your destination...DON'T STOP! DON'T TURN AROUND! You are almost there...

NOW, I SEE...I have everything I need for this life (the scriptures confirms this belief)...All I have to do, is trust my direction, trust my Provider, trust myself and I will arrive at my destination...NOW, that is COOOOL...

PS...Christian said that was the best hair cut he ever had....The barber got down....

Do you see your GAS STATION?

Friendship is Timeless and limitedless

The boys and I are on our wonderful Road Trip 2011...We settled in DC a few days ago...We have seen all the major sites of DC that there is to see.  We are actually exhausted of walking....I chose to walk to get some exercise and to help burn some of these calories from all the junk food I've been eating...

Tonight, I had the pleasure of spending time with an old friend, I have not seen him since 1989.  We served in the military together.  He was like a big brother to me.  I looked up to him in many ways.  One thing I remembered and admired about him was/is his close relationship with his son...Everytime you saw him..you saw his son...He was not only in the military, he was our DJ on base.........DJ Bobski.......He would spin the wheels every weekend at the NCO club and we all went there and had a fabulous time (trying to be grown)...He also was our trainer for a minute on the base honor guard, when he left I took over... Ironically, his wife and I shared the same name.  She was a very sweet woman.  She allowed him to be himself....to socialize and spin his records is what I remember of Joyce...RIP...

He was suppose to give me DJ lessons, so I could develop my skills as DJ Jazzy Joyce...LOL...after one lesson he gave up on me...But, tonight he promise to give me those lessons for sure one day...LOL

DJ Bobski..Im glad the social networks has brought us together, once again. As I was driving to my hotel room...tears formed in my eyes....because life is GOOOOOD...It's wonderful to be able to sit down with an ol' friend and go over all the good memories...the crazy adolescent mindsets we had way back then and thank GOD we have grown up. 

I remember him playing a prank on me one night.  I had requested a song and he made this big ol' to do about..."This is going out to my girl......etc, etc..etc."  And you would never guess what song he played for me.."SHE'S A SUPER FREAK...by Rick James"  I almost crawled under the table that night...But, those were the good ol' days...We were young, carefree and thought the world owed us something.....

When I moved from Dallas to Houston, a dear friend said to me something like...I guess Im loosing a friend..I told her, "FRIENDSHIP GOES BEYOND CITY LIMITS AND STATE LINES."  I truly believe that.  The efforts you make to remain in touch with your friends are invaluable.

Although it's been 22 yrs....We still are friends.  Although he had traveled all over the world and has now retired from the military...We still are friends...Although we both have lost spouses, had children...We still are friends...Although time has passed, 22 yrs ...We still are friends..........

The love a friend is nonjudgemental, it's free caring and sound..That's what I feel tonight...
I am forever grateful for experiencing in life true friendship in many forms....

Thanks BOBSKI for being a TRUE FRIEND all these years..
Love,
Joyce H.


Is there someone you need to reach out too...just to say "hello" or "I was thinking about you"...DO IT now..don't put off another minute...If they receive you with open arms then you know they are a TRUE Friend....

True Friendship is timeless and limitedless...Thank GOD for Friends..
I love you all...