As I reflect on the past 5 weeks of Medical School, it has been an eye opener. You hear about how challenging medical school is, but you will never really comprehend it until you go through it. I'm the type of person that believes ALL things are possible to them that BELIEVE. Whatever, I put my mind to do, I can do with GOD on my side. If you tell me I can't do something, Im going to prove to you and myself, I CAN. I'm going to PUSH through the fear of the unknown into PURPOSE and DESTINY. I believe GOD has called me to a higher calling to complete medical school at the age of 45. This will be a testament of GOD's grace for me, His everlasting strength and power, that resides in me.....
So, this is what drives me, this is what's keeping me in this pursuit to get to the other side. As Jesus, told the disciples (Luke 8:22), "Let's go to the other side..." This was such a simple and matter of fact statement. It did not have any reference of doubt, but a direct statement of ACTION. Let us go to the the other side. A statement determinative of Action without doubt or fear. What was the atmosphere when he made this statement? Was it sunny and bright? Was there any sign of a storm coming? Consequently, as they took action to get to the other side.... a storm came. This storm was so powerful that it scared those on the boat, that they called out to him, crying that they were perishing. But, they did not realize who they had on board. Jesus, rebuked the winds and calmed the seas.
Then he asked them, "Where is your Faith?" Good question. Where is my faith now that I've completed the first block of the most intellectually challenging curriculum of my life. Am I on solid ground? Am I shaken? Absolutely, I am on solid ground, but I was shaken. Tonight I'm knocking the dents out of my armor. I'm refining and strengthing my FAITH, in order for me to get to the other side.
Never in my life I have felt such a challenge. I'm use to excelling. I'm use to rising to the top, even when I get knocked down. This is no different. I must remember that. This is no different, just a different road I'm on. Moreover, GOD is still with me. He has opened doors for me that no man could shut. So, I must know this deep down inside. I must go to the other side.
As I was walking through, my Gross Anatomy Practical today, I had to constantly remind myself of who I am. I was so overwhelmed with emotions that I had to remind myself that I am not the task in front of me. I am a woman destined to succeed in medical school. I am a woman called out to excel in this time and space. I can have what I say. Though the winds and the storms are raging. I will BELIEVE and stay in FAITH. I will trust in GOD, who has never failed me. I will get to the other side.
I have faith in my abilities/capabilities. Faith that the things that I need to improve on will happen, this next Block. I will attentatively incline my hear to hear what the Spirit is saying to me. I will quiet myself every morning to regain and restructure my inner peace in order that I my hear. Let those with an ear, HEAR. Every answer I need is within. Every solution I need is within. I will commit this next Block (#2) to going within and instead totally focusing on the outside. I will get to the other side.
It's time for me to get back to the basics. Close out negative voices around me. Focus on what's REAL..What others are saying is not the TRUTH. GOD's WORD is the TRUTH. So, I must restructure my day, my time that I can spiritually grow....With Spiritual strength, I am invincible. I know who I am. I must concentration on what's inside of me...so, that I can manifest what I want on the outside...
"I will successfully complete medical school and obtain my desired residency." This is my determinative statement. What's yours?