As I reflect on the past 5 weeks of Medical School, it has been an eye opener. You hear about how challenging medical school is, but you will never really comprehend it until you go through it. I'm the type of person that believes ALL things are possible to them that BELIEVE. Whatever, I put my mind to do, I can do with GOD on my side. If you tell me I can't do something, Im going to prove to you and myself, I CAN. I'm going to PUSH through the fear of the unknown into PURPOSE and DESTINY. I believe GOD has called me to a higher calling to complete medical school at the age of 45. This will be a testament of GOD's grace for me, His everlasting strength and power, that resides in me.....
So, this is what drives me, this is what's keeping me in this pursuit to get to the other side. As Jesus, told the disciples (Luke 8:22), "Let's go to the other side..." This was such a simple and matter of fact statement. It did not have any reference of doubt, but a direct statement of ACTION. Let us go to the the other side. A statement determinative of Action without doubt or fear. What was the atmosphere when he made this statement? Was it sunny and bright? Was there any sign of a storm coming? Consequently, as they took action to get to the other side.... a storm came. This storm was so powerful that it scared those on the boat, that they called out to him, crying that they were perishing. But, they did not realize who they had on board. Jesus, rebuked the winds and calmed the seas.
Then he asked them, "Where is your Faith?" Good question. Where is my faith now that I've completed the first block of the most intellectually challenging curriculum of my life. Am I on solid ground? Am I shaken? Absolutely, I am on solid ground, but I was shaken. Tonight I'm knocking the dents out of my armor. I'm refining and strengthing my FAITH, in order for me to get to the other side.
Never in my life I have felt such a challenge. I'm use to excelling. I'm use to rising to the top, even when I get knocked down. This is no different. I must remember that. This is no different, just a different road I'm on. Moreover, GOD is still with me. He has opened doors for me that no man could shut. So, I must know this deep down inside. I must go to the other side.
As I was walking through, my Gross Anatomy Practical today, I had to constantly remind myself of who I am. I was so overwhelmed with emotions that I had to remind myself that I am not the task in front of me. I am a woman destined to succeed in medical school. I am a woman called out to excel in this time and space. I can have what I say. Though the winds and the storms are raging. I will BELIEVE and stay in FAITH. I will trust in GOD, who has never failed me. I will get to the other side.
I have faith in my abilities/capabilities. Faith that the things that I need to improve on will happen, this next Block. I will attentatively incline my hear to hear what the Spirit is saying to me. I will quiet myself every morning to regain and restructure my inner peace in order that I my hear. Let those with an ear, HEAR. Every answer I need is within. Every solution I need is within. I will commit this next Block (#2) to going within and instead totally focusing on the outside. I will get to the other side.
It's time for me to get back to the basics. Close out negative voices around me. Focus on what's REAL..What others are saying is not the TRUTH. GOD's WORD is the TRUTH. So, I must restructure my day, my time that I can spiritually grow....With Spiritual strength, I am invincible. I know who I am. I must concentration on what's inside of me...so, that I can manifest what I want on the outside...
"I will successfully complete medical school and obtain my desired residency." This is my determinative statement. What's yours?
I am praying for God's strength for you. He will keep you strong and you will do this! "For God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind". "Don't worry about anything, instead pray about everything, when you do this you will experience God's peace which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your hearts and mind quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ Jesus"...God bless you. You are an inspiration.
ReplyDeleteHello Mrs. Fyoms (Forty Year Old Medical Student),
ReplyDeleteI am but a stranger within a posting, but you are truly inspiration by your spirit and your actions.
I am also 40 years old (Man, though), but I have some prerequisites to complete before I can apply to medical school next year.
Shamefully, I check your blog for motivation to continue based on your real life account of how things are at ROSS (school and work for me conflict enough for divorce, but your postings are like marital counseling). However, I check for your posts daily (please don't be pressured to post more often, I can wait) because I am confident that you will succeed.
How do I know you will succeed?
Well, you are filled with God's love and you already have his favor (I don't know the price, but you could probably buy the school with those two).
So, without noting what some may view as a sermon (I am not a preacher, or preacher hopeful), I thank you for pushing forward where many have dared to go.
You are brave and prepared for the tasks at hand, and you will get to the other side!
As for me, I made a decision not to make posts on the internet, because I am too old fashioned and it was so, new.
However, I am making a post now because I want you to know that what you seek can be accomplished, no matter how difficult accomplishing it appears in front of you.
It has been done before you, and it will be done thousands of times after you. The questions is how was it done?
So if you must know how, seek that answer from someone who has done it (no duh intended or requested), and make sure that you disect the how components until you are comfortable doing it.
For example, was it done through the use of concept maps, flash cards, compare and contrast notes, mp3 or audio notes, lecture notes, text book summaries,a review of past exams, quizes, or study aids like Step 1 prep question banks or Step 1 review books? Was it done via a special sleep or study time schedule?
No matter how it was done before you, you can do it too, and at least one of your readers (you know you have thousands of page views right?)know that for sure.
Be blessed, Fyoms.
For, until you get to the other side, you should know that you have at least one reader/40 year old Medical School hopeful rooting and praying (I'm working on my prayer frequency right now, but at least I do it) for you.
Supportfully,
Mr. Fyomsh.
i just ran into your blog while looking up some stuff online...and it just really gave me a lot of hope and inspiration...
ReplyDeletei am a 24 year old (i feel compelled to mention age on this blog...) korean girl who just recently got accepted to ross for the jan 2012 semester...and as much as i really want to go, i still have some financial issues to deal with...and although i feel frustrated, i know that God will lead me down the right path..i just have to be patient and obey Him even if it is not down this path...
i don't have much time to make a decision as the deposit + flight plan is due soon..but if not, i hope i can defer my enrollment, and hopefully i'll get to see you in may!
i will be praying for you and your continuous studies and i hope you will pray for me too!
@anonymous..Talk with your student advisor about the upfront financial obligations, may she could offer you some suggestions...I know a few people that arrived the day of orientation...So, they do have late admittance...No worries I believe it will all work out for your good...
ReplyDeleteHi
ReplyDeleteWell? how is it going? Havent heard anything in a while? Whats your daily life like? hows is school hard? easier? very time consuming Ill bet. Is it what you thought it would be?