Saturday, December 28, 2013

Step 1 preparation...

How do you prepare for an exam that could very well determine your path as a practicing physician?  Where do you start?  What part of the 632 page First Aid for USMLE Step 1 book do you begin?

I know I have said this once before..but, practicing physicians are superhuman.  How did they remember all this stuff?  Not only remembering, but also applying the information proficiently.  No two patients are the same.  So, I rest in if it's been done once, it can be done again.  With time, proficiency will come, this I know.  For the past two years, I was taught every aspect of basic sciences and expected to remember every concept.  Incredible! I look forward to looking back to this day triumphantly....

After such a much need Christmas break, it's time to get back to BUSINESS...Thank GOD for the review course I started the day after Christmas that has jumped started my journey to exam day.  I'm kinda nervous and really want to score my best, in order that my opportunities are endless.  The higher my score the wider my options to practice...

As history would have it, most of my colleagues before me have done very well.  So, the advice I've received...Study everyday and do a lot of questions....all seem so simple right?  Well, I started the Pathology review and doing questions...somethings seem very familiar.  So, right now I'm feeling really optimistic.

So, over the next month, I will be putting in at least 10 hrs days of studying and I decided to attend a classroom review, as well...By Jan 31, 2014....I should have a strong footing on most concepts and ready to sit for the exam.....Lord help me!

In preparation for life's journey, we all have preparation to do.  We can only expect desired results with input of effort and vigorous determination.  There will be times of falling...but, the key is getting back up and moving forward, which I am very good at doing..LOL....

Get back up!  Re-think it and move forward!

Now, go live your dreams..

Sunday, December 22, 2013

Life on the Island at a Caribbean Medical School..It's no vacation!

It's funny now that I am back in the USA to reflect on my life on the island is bitter sweet.  Ross University Basic Sciences lectures are located on the island of Dominica.  Dominica is not a tourist type of island.  Meaning, you will not find all the luxuries of tourism as in most Caribbean islands.  When I first arrived on the island, the plush green surroundings observed as we drove to the city of Picard, was absolutely beautiful.  The driver took pride and letting us know that Pirates of the Caribbean was filmed there.  The drive from the airport to the campus was about 45 minutes.  One of the drives, I dreaded.  The winding road was not to be desired.

However, my son and I quickly made adjustment.  We had to walk every where, although there are taxis available on the main strip or you can hire a taxi driver to take you to your front door if you lived far from the main strip.  Also, Ross University provides a shuttle to class if you need it.

Our first apartment was not the best on the island, I was trying to save money...But, in the end it was not worth it to me.  So, We moved to a more accommodating place.  You can rent apartments with or without generators.  I never lived in a place with a generator.  Although power may go out, it usually isn't out for that long.  Hot water in some places are limited to only in the shower, unless your apartment is more updated.  During heavy rains on the island, all water is shut off.  I never could really understand this..But, when the water came back on it was muddy brown...So, you must have clean back up water.  All drinking water can be bought or you could get filtered water from on campus.  Electricity was bought on a pay as you go basis.  Which really wasn't that bad.  All apartments come with cable and water paid by landlord.  If you wanted wireless internet, make sure you bring your own wireless router.  One of my favorite things about the island was my weekly maid service (which was included in rent) and my laundry service.

In my opinion, I brought entirely too much stuff to the island.  I arrived there with 5 suitcases and shipped 2 barrels.  Yes, there are a lot of things that were not available on the island.  But, the truth of the matter, I really could have done without it anyway...I had entirely too many clothes and shoes...

Now, over the course of my time there Ross has done a lot to improve.  So, first semester from when I first arrived is totally different than what is going on there now.  However, one thing that rings across the board with all semesters (except 4th which is 8 hrs) is: you have class four hours a day, then in afternoon you have small group sessions, anatomy lab, etc..then in the evening you are studying until your eyes bleed..LOL...Medical school is nothing like undergrad.  You must see the material taught at least 5 to 7 times before the exam.  You must see it in different ways: charts, graphs, drawings, rote memorization, answering clinical based questions, etc. Most importantly you must know that rote memorization is not going to work in medical school.  You have to know descriptors and application knowledge.

Although we were on a Caribbean island, the only time we really had leisure time was after an exam.  And the very next day, lectures began. So be ready....I always tried to make time for going to the gym at least 4 times per week or having lunch or dinner occasionally with friends.  Some of my peers where able to get certified diving certificates, go hiking to the boiling lake and waterfalls, and zip lining, etc.  So, if you plan your time properly you will be able to see parts of the island.  Some even stayed over on breaks in between semesters to tour the island.

Medical school is a test of endurance, stamina and determination. There would be times when I thought I could not learn one more thing. I thought my mind was going to burst open.  But, I kept going.  I finished that day and started it all over again the next day.  I always logged my activity for the day, just as a gauge to help me keep track of what I did that day, because by the end of the week,  the amount of information seen is mind boggling and you need to know what you have covered or not covered.  Getting a rhythm and staying on track is so important.  Make sure you do not isolate yourself.  Make sure you get 2 to 3 people to have study groups with and bounce concepts back and forth.  Ask for help when you need it, the sooner the better.  Do not let your past successes or pride keep you from getting the help you need. THIS IS A DIFFERENT PLAYING FIELD AND MOST ARE BARELY MAKING IT.  So, learning to network and learning the process the earlier the better is most beneficial...

One thing I've learned is most of your back home support system, do not and will not understand what you are going through, because they are use to you getting great grades. So, you will bond with your peers.  You may be coming into medical school with a 4.0 gpa, but you may leave medical school with a 2.0 gpa.  It's no cake walk. So, as I said before, do not let your pride keep you from getting help when you need it.

Even though this road to becoming an MD is the most challenging you may ever experience in your life, enjoy your successes along the way.  Enjoy knowing you have what it takes to make it through.  Enjoy knowing that others have done it before you and that means it is doable.  Enjoy knowing that making it to the other side is an accomplish that deserves celebration.  You can make it to the other side.  Be ready to fight for your victory.  Be ready to endure like a good soldier.  Be ready to ask for help.  Be ready to put in the long hours.  Go in knowing, medical school is like no other learning process on the planet.  However, know it can be done and you have what it takes to make it through.

Now, GO live your dream!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Success feels good...

Is success a way of life or a feeling you get only when you accomplish something?  I believe success is a way of life meaning, although life may have a lot of turns, ups and downs, your outlook is the defining factor. I don't think that no two people have the same definition for success. However, my definition of success is living my best life NOW....going after my hearts desire...enjoying each day in gratitude..and great expectation for a better tomorrow... Success is a way of life for me..I have always been successful even when I was down to my last.  I wear success not only as a garment but it is transcribe into the inner most part of my being.

I just successfully completed another step towards my goal.  I successfully passed the Comprehensive Basic Science Exam, aka The COMP...As I was preparing for the exam, I felt like I was lost, without direction on what to study.  I was just asking the Spirit to lead me to the information that I needed to know.  I was suppose to review, study and know the past two years worth of information.  Where exactly do you start?  Well, as always GOD was and is faithful..

So, learn to dwell in success.  Wear it as a garment and let it be transcribed into your inner most being.  It's been proven that our thoughts can have an affect on how our genes can be transcribe even at a molecular level.  So, watch your thoughts.  Watch how you view your experiences.  Watch how you view your life.  Be consistent in your thoughts, your words and your deeds..and your ultimate result will be SUCCESS...

Now, go live your dreams....
Next level, PLEASE...

Sunday, December 1, 2013

At What Cost?

At what cost are you willing to pursue your dreams?  Everything decision you make has a cost attached to it..whether you decided to move forward, stay still and do nothing or go in another direction.  There is a cost.

The Holy scriptures encourages us to weigh the cost before we venture out pursuing a task...This is not to discourage you but encourage you to make sure you are prepared for the journey.  I feel the most important assessment is to know that you have what it takes to make it through any or all obstacles that may present.  Please don't confuse what I'm saying with you must have everything in place in order to step out..but, you must have the innate things in place.  Things such as:

  • Determination
  • Perseverance 
  • Faith, Hope, 
  • Trust in GOD
  • Belief in yourself
  • Fluidity and Adaptability
  • Wisdom, 
  • last but not least, A PLAN, etc...
These qualities you can not buy with money.  Moreover, having them are essential to moving forward and accomplishing your dreams.

More than likely, not all pieces of the puzzles will be on hand at the time you step out..But, as you step out in Faith..things will come together...If there is a WILL there is a way.  Find it!

So, how much sacrifice is it going to take to get you where you want to be? To have the life you desire? To share your life with the one you desire? To travel as you desire? At what price are you willing to pay?  I believe for every sacrifice there is an equal and/or greater reward.  The tears cried, the fear experienced, the long nights, the early mornings will all be worth it when you obtain the promise...

Now, go live your dream!

Luke 14: 28-30 NKJV
28 For which of you, intending to build a tower, does not sit down first and count the cost, whether he has enough to finish it 29 lest, after he has laid the foundation, and is not able to finish, all who see it begin to mock him, 30 saying, ‘This man began to build and was not able to finish’?

Thursday, November 28, 2013


Thanksgiving: an expression of gratitude especially to GOD....
Today is a US Holiday called Thanksgiving....

For some reason this Thanksgiving is the ultimate for me.  Although I'm away from my US family, there's an excitement I feel that's like no other...I am truly Thankful for the many blessings I have received and will continue to receive.  GOD has been truly shining in my life.

I am thankful for the my health, my strength, my life, my children, my parents, sibling, and extended family, my friends...My peace, my mind, my wisdom, my accomplishments, my perseverance, my determination, my courage, my laughter, my tears, my awakenings, my growth, my increase, my compassion, my wealth, my prosperity......Thank you FATHER!


Now, go live your dreams!

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Face Your Fears...

Today was the day for me to face my fear head on....The funny part about it all I never knew I had the fear.  After that past 2 years of intense training and now needing to relax a bit, some friends and I decided to go Extreme Canyoning.  It's something I've always wanted to do since I've arrived here, but never felt like I had the time.  All I ever heard was how much fun it is.  My date with destiny was today.

I was all gun ho about the excitement and ready to go right?  Wrong...Once we got to the first cliff I was over taken by fear.  But, I thought I could still do it so I got strapped in and now it was time for me to go off the side of the cliff.  The guide a very nice man would assist you with a small push that totally freaked me out.  I could not understand nor did I appreciate him pushing me.  I thought he was crazy.  So, that made me even more nervous.  "Please stop pushing me," I told him.  He replied if I don't push you will never go.  Well, at that point in time, I was not going and that was that...I got out the gear and stood over to the side to let the others go.

As I watch them do it so effortlessly, I was so over taken by intense fear.  I could not stop the tears.  I could not stop crying.  I was not going to go off the side of that cliff..that was out...I was ready to go home...I could not believe I even consider such a crazy idea....

So, after totally embarrassing myself by crying hysterically..I finally calmed down..Everyone had already gone off the side and now it was my turn to give it another try...Well, this time with the help of our guide I went down escorted.  What a we got down to the bottom there was a pool of the most wonderful feeling water ever.  We swam and laughed a bit..then it was time to journey to the next cliff...

This time I was ready or was I?  I literally had to meditate and picture myself successfully going down on my own..  I took about 5 minutes to visualize my success..and sure enough..I did it!  I went down every cliff after that alone.  I even jumped off a few cliffs into the water below..It was a blast.

Quickly, I realized that the feeling I felt was unwarranted.  The intense fear I felt was false evidence appearing real.  The thing that was stopping me from experiencing the extreme excitement of the adventure was all in my mind.  And the interesting thing about this is I had no idea that I was afraid.  When I was in the Air Force, We use to go canoeing and jumping off of cliffs, and swimming in the Mississippi River in Montana, all the time.  So, I did not think twenty and some odd years later I would have an issue with it......I was so proud of myself because I did not let the unknown stop me from achieving and going after what I wanted to do.  It is a great feeling.

I shared all this to say to you...face your fear (s) that GOD have you on a path that can only lead to GREATNESS...As you allow others to push you into greatness, you will see that it is all apart of who you are.  Greatness is within you. LET IT OUT!

2 Peter 1:3 Amplified
For His divine power has bestowed upon us all things that (are requisite and suited) to life and godliness, through the full, personal knowledge of Him who called us by and to His own glory and excellence (virtue)

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

How did I get here?

It’s quite amazing how this simple blog I started in 2008 has grown to over 88,000 views…I am so glad that I can take my life and share it with the world.  My life has been filled with a lot of twist in turns and this blog is just a snap shot of just one aspect of it.  I was recently asked why did I choose Ross University over an US school?  This is how my destiny unfolded…

I guess you can say Ross chose me or it was in my DESTINY!  I truly believe that my steps are ordered by GOD... At the cusp of 2007, I began to seek out my plan for 2008, which was a ritual I practiced every New Year’s Eve.  I would take the time to look back over the year to see what my successes were and what I needed to change.  I knew I would be moving to Houston that summer after my wedding, so that meant I would have to move my mortgage office, too.   I would have to rebuild my clientel.  So, as I was meditating I heard a small voice say, “Go to medical school.” Medical school?  That was weird and strange, I thought.  Well, I decided to followed the voice’s leading and began to research what I needed to do to get into medical school.   I discussed it with my husband and decided to begin taking the prereqs that summer.  (You can read my earlier blogs on the challenges I faced with advise from so called medical advisors…)  

Once I got the minimum classes done, I started applying the first time within Texas only…then the next application cycle nationwide.  Well, the second time around my national application was not completed on time for some strange reason.  The application site said they never received any of my Letter of Recommendations.  OH NO!  How disappointing was that.  All my professors said they sent them.  But, the system had no record of them.  I was actually bewildered. 
I decided and open up my options....I started looking for alternatives to this long process of getting to med school in the US.  One thing I noticed that during the course of my deceased husband's illness and the many doctors we encountered, only 2 doctors were graduates from a US medical school.  I would even ask doctors in the elevators, where did they attend medical school.  The majority had the same answer: some other country.  So, I said to myself, “Hey, it doesn't matter where I get my MD, just as long as I get it and can come back to US to practice.” 
I began to research schools that had US financial aid available and there were a couple.  Then I saw Ross an informational session in Dallas.  So, I drove there and was so impressed with the presentation.  After speaking with a few graduates that are currently practicing in Texas, I decide this was the school I was to attend. 

I started the online application as soon as I got home.  I began to fill out the application and was told that my email address was already in the system.   “Hmmm,” I thought to myself….I have never been on this website before.  So, I requested my password to be sent to me and when I received it, it was a password I had used over 12 yrs early…”OMG”…I thought to myself.  So, I logged on to the system and all the information they had on file was from when I lived in Long Beach, CA in 1999.  I was floored and amazed.  I did not remember this school at all.  I didn’t remember filling out the application.  I did not remember any of it.  (If you have not noticed by now, I’m very emotional and sentimental about the small things in life.) This was one of those moments that overshadowed all the obstacles and pointed me in the direction of my destiny.  This small forgotten step reassured me that I was headed in the right direction.  It is so reassuring to know that even when I sometimes get off path…My steps are ordered…
I applied.  I got the interview.   I was accepted!  All my paperwork flowed so smoothly…It was my time!  This was the place!  Now, I had to put in the work to make it happen.  Then, I got a letter from a medical school in Georgia saying that they had requested more information from me and I did not respond so they were withdrawing my application.  WHAT, I never received a request for more information from this school.  So, I called the Dean of Admission.  He apologized but, told me that application season in now closed and there is nothing that can be done. For a split moment I felt cheated.  I thought that probably was my door.  But, then I remembered.  I have already been accepted to Ross and why am I fretting.  “I place before you and open door that no one can shut. (Rev 3:8)”

So, the beauty of all of this is I was looking into medical school over 14 years ago, and was not ready.  Then when I was ready, I found Ross again. There’s a proverb that states, “when the student is ready the teacher will appear.”   Even though, I put the dream on the back burner, when I was ready it came back up.  I had to move on it this time… There was no time to consider my age, no time to consider the obstacles….It was time to walk in FAITH..WALK IN DESTINY… Knowing that if I have the WILL, THERE IS A WAY!  I was indeed ready this time…I was ready to do all that was required. 

So, with all that said.  Don’t fret because you have not yet obtained or feel like the opportunity has passed you by.  For it you are willing and obedient you shall eat the good of the land (Isa 1:19). You will find your way, your path, your calling, you DESTINY awaits you…if you faint NOT!


Monday, November 11, 2013

Have Confidence! NO WORRIES, NOW!

Okay, today meant so much to me.  I took my last mini exam EVER; moreover, I was finishing the most challenging 2 years of my life...The intensity started building up yesterday evening...So, I said a prayer to calm my nerves.  I tried to get to bed early, but did not get to sleep until 4:30 am. I just didn't feel prepared.  This might be the first time ever that I really felt I need more time to study, FOR REAL!

For the past 20 years, I can program myself to wake up at a certain time without an alarm...But, this time I was not taking anything for granted, so I set two alarms.  I normally try to get up at least a 2hrs before my exam so, I can review and have a nice breakfast.  But, today I turned off the alarm and went back to bed.  I finally got up at 7 am in a panic (exam at 8 am), didn't have time to eat...So, I thought I could grab something from The Shacks (a row of local vendors next door to campus)..So, 7:30, I'm walking out the door...get to the Shacks and most of them are still closed...OH NO..I can't go in this exam without eating...Well, there was one vendor open and ready to accommodate..YES....Grabbed an egg sandwich and started my walk up the hill to the Annex for my exam...Okay, I sit down on the benches trying to eat and read over my notes..(last minute cramming..)...I just start getting really NERVOUS...OMG...

I check the board to get my seating assignment...I'm seat A-01..THE FIRST Seat...Okay...I get to my seat and tears start running down my face...I am so nervous...Everything is riding on this last exam...(Flashback...the uphill journey to today)....I managed to say another prayer and gain my composure...And began my test...Okay, I started at the last question first...just to get that one out of the way...A sign of completion and victory for me...Then a peace and a calmness came over me...MY GOD NEVER FAILS...No worries.....NOW!

So, I said all that to say...Have confidence in yourself...If you have done all that you know to do and could have in that.  You have everything you need to succeed. You are well equipped for the task ahead of you....So, don't let fear, intimidation or any other false evidence appearing real STOP YOU!


Friday, November 8, 2013

How Big Is your Dream?

I was just wondering How big is your dream?  Do you believe that you have within your power, presence, or influence to create your world as you desire?  Do you believe that Faith and Perseverance are true ingredients for success?  Do you believe you have what it takes?  Are you pursuing your dream?

How BIG IS YOUR DREAM?  Does it cause you to stay up late preparing or wake up early with great anticipation to see it manifest?  Are your actions lining up with your words (your hearts desire)?  Each day are you taking steps and/or actions that would bring you one day closer to your dream?

I was just wondering, if you were limiting your true capabilities because of fear, lack, and/or doubt?  Or were you doing whatever it took to make strides to follow your dream...

So, I ask the question just to say that no matter how BIG your DREAM is or how minute...Do you realize it's all obtainable...Find a way!  According to your Faith, let it be done unto...


Thursday, November 7, 2013

The End of a Chapter...

Tomorrow, November 8th, 2013 is the last day of class for me as I have known it the past 2 yrs...I am closing, yet another chapter on this wonderful journey.  As I reflect on these milestones, my heart leaps with excitement,  gratitude and great hopes for the next level.  The interesting part about this is this is just the beginning.  I have 3 exams to prepare for within the next 11 days...And they are deal breakers...It's kinda strange that every exam in medical school is a deal breaker..that keeps us on edge...(Although, I've heard they've changed the grading rubric for those coming up the ranks, in order that one exam don't kill or kick you out of the game....I think that's wonderful...)

I'm closing this chapter with great excitement, believing I have received all that I need to succeed at the next level.  Feb 2014 is USMLE STEP 1 exam and then I start rotations..Now, in between is a whole lot of work...We have to take on Dec 13, the Comprehensive Shelf Exam, which goes over everything from day one..this is sorta a dry run for Step 1...So, beginning Nov 19th, it's hard core Step prep time.....

I remember when I was a young girl in church, we use to sing a song..."I'm running for my life...I'm running for my life, I'm running for my life, If any body ask you, what's the matter with me..Tell them I saved, sanctified, Holy Ghost filled, water baptized, I got Jesus on my side and I'm running for my life."  That's exactly where I am today..Still running..still pursuing..still living...still dreaming...still enjoying all that GOD has prepared for me...

The race is not given to the swift, nor the battle to the strong...Ecc 9:11
Know that all who run in a race competes for the prize, but only one receives?  Run to WIN..1 Cor 9:24 CJB

Now go live your dream..!

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Step 1 - In My Site...

Okay now that I have less than 30 days to complete my biological science portion of my medical degree, I registered for Step 1 exam today.  What a great feeling!  Step one is the first licensing exam for medical students in the USA.  It's probably one of the most important exams of our life. My step 1 score is a gateway to my desired specialty. (Rev 3:8) I know that GOD has opened doors for me, that no man can close, so I have to do my part and prepare accordingly.  I know this is just the beginning and a lot of work is going to have to happen between now and my actual exam date, but it's great to know that I'm moving in that direction.

Sometimes, it may seem like your dreams, goals or pursuits are so far in front of you that you just can't even imagine them really coming to pass.  But, will, if you don't give up.

Don't give up on creating your world and all that you wish it to be.
Don't give up when challenges arise and it seems to be blocking your view.
Don't give up when you feel like if one more thing happens, you are going to SCREAM!

Hold on..change is coming..STAY in FAITH..CONTINUE TO BELIEVE..IT'S WORTH THE FIGHT!  We are fighting not against flesh and blood, but principalities that would cause US to faint...We shall reap OUR  REWARD, if WE faint not.....

I was so excited today that I got the chance to speak to a young man that has a desire to become a doctor, but felt burnt out.  I shared with him some things..then I said, "it is better to let your dream inspire you now to move forward, than to haunt you later."  Let your story ring to the next generation that you strove with all that was in you to push forward and to dare to believe...AND GOD made the difference...I know from where my help comes from..It definitely comes from the due season, your dream will manifest.  It can be done...just one step at a time....

I'm not even trying to say that obstacles will not come...the question is what are willing to do to get around them?  Let your actions line up with your words, for know that greater is HE that is in you than he that is in the world.  Don't look to government, family, friends, although support is nice to have, but look to your Creator, GOD ALmighty that gave you the dream, the desire, the calling.   HE will put you in the right place, right time and right circumstances for all the pieces to the puzzle to come together.  So, endure the long hours, late nights and perhaps the tears..but, if you faint not you shall reap....I'm a witness...

Step 1 exam I'm ready for you...February 2014....

Now, go live your dream!

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Recall and Apply...

Today was another exhausting moment doing clinical rounds at the hospital.  I was assigned to geriatrics in the morning session and post- op in the afternoon.  So to my surprise, my experience at a local nursing home was epic.  We round with an attending physician at a nursing home that has be opened for over 50 years.  The facility was not the fanciest as you would find in the US, however, the up keep and dedications to the residents were impeccable.  The workers took great pride in the up keep of each resident.  "There was no smell of odors and facility was nice and clean."  As the attending would put it, "each worker here works above their pay grade unsupervised," meaning they work to a level that of excellence that's way above the amount of money they actually make.  Each resident was bathe and groomed each day.  All beds were made daily.  Each diet catered to the resident's dietary need.  Although funding and finances were not plentious, the caretakers took great pride in how they cared for the elderly.  Job well done I must say.

Now, coming from my perspective as a student learning to use all the information I've gained, being able to recall and apply it is imperative.  We first began with a 90+ female that had a history of high blood pressure and type 2 diabetes.  So, we were methodically drilled on how would we care for this resident.  What line of medications would be administered and why.  what are some contraindications of these medicines in the elderly, etc.  To my surprise I was able to recall more pertinent facts than I thought I would.  When put on the spot my mind began to race, trying to quickly recall the answer.  I tried to visualize and recall my notes, or things I had written on my whiteboard as if they were right in front of me...Now, somethings were fuzzy, but, for the most part visualization helped me today.  For instance, I was asked what was a side affect of an Ace Inhibitor that I should look out for in our patients.  I recalled my drawing on my white board and was able to locate that side effect: coughing... I'm growing everyday..taking baby steps..but, I'm moving forward.

Then our next case was a spinal injury patient that also suffered from diabetes and had to have his right leg amputated due to diabetic neuropathy, a complication of diabetes.  We had to recall the signs and symptoms of a T12 spinal cord injury, as well as brachial plexus injury that has damaged the radial, ulnar and median nerves in his right hand.  WoW...over the past two years we've learned all this stuff and now right before our was time to apply what we've learned.

Another plus for the day, was I was rounding with a top notch group of students which made my day even more enjoyable. Everyone was eager to learn, to help each other gain the knowledge we needed...Team work is so important...

At the end of our rounds, we saw many different textbook ailments.  I was impressed with our agenda for the day.  I thought the attending was just shooting off the cuff...but in the end she actually had a type written agenda of all the cases we saw today..I was really impressed with that. That allow us to really seal in our subconscious mind the learning points of the day.

It feels really good when you are able to see the transition of life right before your eyes, however, big or small the progress, be excited about the progress.  Because as you continue moving forward you will see you labor is not in vain.


Saturday, September 21, 2013

One World...One Love..

Have you ever thought, I mean really thought about all the billions of people we have in this world.  Have you taken notice those that you've come in contact with for the first time?  I marvel at the fact that at this place in time I am with a person or group of people that I did not know a month or year ago, and we are now together. How did that happen?  How was I chosen for this path or they for theirs?  Is it by chance or are my foot steps ordered by Destiny?   That's fascinating to me.

We all have our plans, our agendas and sometimes those plans intersect with people that you've never imagined.  I believe that there are very few accidents when it comes to my encounters with others.  Destiny drives us to places we should be.  Hope keeps us on that path.  And our Actions makes Destiny a daily reality.

This week I had the opportunity to do clinical rotations at a local hospital.  It was a blast.  It was now time to put my knowledge into action.  Anxiously, awaiting my assignment, I really wanted to witness a real live surgery.  However, I was assigned to the post-surgery ward.  This is the area where patients recover after an invasive surgery procedure.  Our first patient was an elderly man with altered mental status.  Boy, was it hard to communicate with him.  We would ask him a question and get a response that absolutely had nothing to do with question.  So, just imagine the proficients skills needed to treat this patient.  Then our next patient was a male with a bleeding ulcer.  Then a young man with a spontaneous hydrothorax (fluid in pleural cavity).  Then my last patient of the day, an elderly woman that had a transient ischemia stroke.  OMG...what an exhausting day!  And I had only seen 4 patients.  I could just imagine how a doctor feels at the end of the day after seeing 20-25 patients...I have a new found respect for them.  They are super humans...well, not really..but, humanitarians, none the less.

One of the highlights of my day at the hospital was meeting other medical students from a different medical school.  The willingness and openness they expressed towards me was wonderful.  As we all joined together to round with our attending doctor, they were encouraging and resourceful. Quick to assist me with interpreting and answering questions.  It was nice to see them in action. I thought to myself, I need more exposure to this.  I need to be in real world situations in order to apply what I've learned over the past two years.  It's time to move out of the classroom and into the hospital.  I've been on this step long enough.  There are many more to climb. It's time to move one step closer to clinical rotations.  Finishing this last semester strong.

So, as I finish this week with great hope and expectation for the future.  My focus is completing what's in front of me, NOW.  I have walked through the door, I am in the room, now I just need to find my seat...

So, as you move closer towards your dream, your goal...take the time to notice those that are on a similar road as you and learn from them, take in all they have to offer..because it was a reason why they were chosen to cross your path and you there's.  Building a bridge of hope, of friendship, of resources is always a good thing....

One world...One Love....
Go live your dream!

Thursday, August 8, 2013

On the right path?

First, let me say thanks to everyone sending me prayers and get well wishes...I am back 100%...I even scored another A on my clinical exams...That was a huge blessing....I'm telling you, when you persist to succeed eventually the results you are seeking will manifest.  I am a witness.

Yesterday, I went into my exam with great expectations of repeating my new trend of smashing my exams...HOWEVER,....I felt like I was slapped in the face...OMG...did it hurt.  We haven't gotten the results of the exam as of yet.  However, I'm still hopeful that I scored well...My fingers are crossed, along with my eyes...LOL

Today, I started reviewing for my comprehensive final next Wednesday and it appears that information from Block 1 is still registering in my memory bank...That's a good feeling.  With the wealth of information thrown at us and trying to master ways to remember every possible detail is the challenge of most medical students. 

Therefore, I am actively engaging in my review sessions with group study, alone study and doing practice questions.  One thing different in medical school than in undergraduate is you must take the time to do practice questions.  The more questions you do the better your results.  Medical school is not just memorizing information and then regurgitating it back on an exam.  It's being able to apply what you have learned in a clinical setting.  So, a trained doctor's mind is always working as the patient is talking.  What has helped me is to develop essence, to create flow charts of information.  I have to draw it out, write it out, make charts of common factors.  A lot of work goes into comprehending the subject matter...But, it feels good when you are able to answer difficult questions correctly.

So, as you journey on your path, take a step back and look at different ways you can master your task, master your moment.  Then you will see, as you creatively work your plan, your plan will unfold one step at a time. 

Medical school....It's a place that definitely test your endurance, your drive, your heart, your stamina, your desire, your will, and your beliefs.  Medical school, there's no other place I'd rather be right now, because this is where I am suppose to be.

Are you on the path you were destined for?  If not why not? What's stopping you? How can your remove the barriers that are blocking you?  what do you need to do to get on your path ? Take a moment and think about it and then ACT. Get those obstacles out of your way, change lanes so you can be on the right path.  NOW!

Your destiny awaits you...Now, go live your dream!

Thursday, August 1, 2013

I see the finish line.....

I woke up this morning feeling, ugh! The past couple of days I've been having chills, hot flashes, sore throat and just not feeling 100%.  I'm thinking to myself, should I go to the clinic or should I just let and it ride and continue trying to focus. I've been drinking tea and fluids. Looking frantically in my cabinets for some Vitamin C, but I have none; however, I did find some multiple vitamins.  So, I took those.  Going to the clinic will not serve me well, unless I have a bacterial infection, which I don't think I have (due to the absence of exudate on my tonsils). There's not much that can be done but let this feeling take its course and pray my immune system kicks in and relieve my symptoms. 

I see the finish line.  I'm at a critical point in the semester.  I have my Clinical final tomorrow, my last mini exam on Wednesday and the comprehensive NBME final the following Wednesday.  I think I'm just going to keep going, ignore the prodromal phase of this ugh feeling and believe my immune systems is strong enough to contain and it will not affect my performance tomorrow morning.  I feel so much better when I lay down and take a nap.  But, "ain't nobody got time for that."  LOL  I can't just lay in bed, watch tv and drink hot tea.  I need to study.  I need to practice. I need to get with it.

So, my lesson for today is to stay determined.   I am determined to finish strong.  I am determined to do what is needed to make it to the finish line.  It's not how fast I run, it only matters that I stay in the race.

Pray for me...I'm going in...

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Breaking down Barriers....

I remember when I was in the military, there was a lot of talk about the four minute mile, what a great feat it was when Roger Bannister broke the four minute mile back in 1954!  Now, today the four minute mile has become standard of all male professional middle distance runners.  I was in top physical condition back then,  and number two in my squadron for making the fastest time amongst the women (second to a staff sergeant that ran daily > 5 miles) , that was a huge accomplishment for me.  Because prior to the military, running was never on my list of things to do. 

Now, through the years I've managed to make huge strides in breaking down barriers (that may have been preconceived or may have been real.)  I was the first person in my family to graduate from college.  I had a successful military career.  I had a successful professional career.  I had the home with circle drive way and pool...And now I have embarked on new heights.....MEDICAL SCHOOL...This was a whole different ball game.  I can't use my charisma and innate charm to get the deal close or wine and dine my client to build a relationship.  This is just between me and the exams, the definer of progression or regression.  I must admit, it has not been an easy feat.  It has absolutely been humbling. 

Most people looking from the outside, say, "OH, you are smart. you can do it."  Little do they realize smart has nothing to do with completing medical school.  Think about it everyone here has high grades in college or they would not be here.  Some come from Ivy League school others from state schools.  It has to do with stamina and perseverance.  We all have the same struggle...Trying to master medical school written exams.  I marvel at how the questions are written...the exam writers have to be genius.  I never would have thought med school would have been this challenging. 

I have cried after exams, I have left hopeful, but all that was turned around once I got my score.  But, THIS DAY, JULY 12, 2013....Things have changed for me.  I got my first "A".  OMG, what joy I felt.  I did cry, but this time it was from accomplishment...I couldn't stop the tears from rolling...After the many times of falling and getting back up...taking it one day at a efforts have paid off... I broke down my barrier.  I manifested what I've been saying from my very first exam, "I'm going to get an A on this one." 

There may be a wall in front of you and you just can't seem to get around it or it doesn't seem like it's ever going to move.  Know this, if you continue to make efforts in breaking it down, IT WILL FALL.  My mom always told me, "How do you eat an elephant?  One bite at a time."  So, no matter how big it looks, how impossible it may appear, YOU CAN BREAK DOWN THE BARRIER, YOU CAN WIN.  DON'T GIVE UP!  Stay in Faith and keep moving forward and it will happen.

Now, go live your dream.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

MD in the Making....

All I can say is WOW....I was listening to a sermon yesterday which was confirming GOD's Destiny for my life.  I was in awe.  As these days have turned into years, I am experiencing God's Promises in my life.  I will obtain the prize, if I faint not.....

In the preacher's sermon, he was sharing "The things GOD has prepared for you will be revealed to you by His Spirit.  You will know that HE has implanted an idea, a dream, a gift, a talent in your spirit, because nothing will satisfy, even if the road getting to that "THING" is a tumultuous one."  That is so true.  I don't know where I would be right now if I didn't hear that still small voice that told me to close down my mortgage company and go to medical school. Now, you know that sound crazy, especially to those looking from the outside.  But we as believers have to know how to look on the inside and see all that GOD has prepared for us and go after it.  It's already deposited within.  It is our job to cultivate, manifest our dreams.  GOD is not going to do it for you.  He has opened up the door and made the way.  Our part is seeking it out and acting on what we know is ours.

As I prepare for my exam in the morning, I'm a bit nervous and excited because, I know the things that GOD has prepared for me. (1 Cor 2:9-15)  I know that this path that I'm on is all apart of making my latter days greater and the making of a great MD.

So, with that said, what are you making?  What are you earnestly seeking to manifest?  What are you doing to be who you were created to be before the foundation of the world? You have everything you need...NOW!!!

Go live your dreams..
Gal 6:9 NKJV " And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."

Thursday, May 9, 2013

I will NOT give up, It's not over!

It has been brought to my attention that I have not posted a blog, an expression in quite some time, now...SO, I thought I express to you an inbreed, innate part of my being......

No matter how tired I may get and can't see what tomorrow brings...I will not give up! No matter how drained I may feel, I will NOT GIVE UP! ...."IT'S NOT OVER....UNTIL GOD SAYS SO...."

Though I have been silent in this arena...I have not been silent in my life...I have regained my strength, my determination is burning more than ever..My energy is high...Im working out and eating healthier and I am focused...and you can best believe....IT"S NOT OVER FOR ME....

I am going to kill this semester without a doubt...GOD is SO GOOD TO ME....So, know this, just because I may be silent in this believe...I'M LIVING MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST...IM REACHING  MY DREAMS and GOALS! I'M LIVING MY DESTINY...IM not giving up..because GOD has not given up on me...SELAH...

It's not over...I've always what you must to keep you on your path of greatness...push with all you've got...when you get tired of pushing, rest awhile, then get back to pushing...IM PUSHING!

May GOD continue to bless you ALL is my prayer!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Desire to WIN...

Desire: a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen... A strong feeling...hmmm.....

Where do you get this strong feeling from?  Is it something that can be developed?    How do you WIN when obstacles are apparent? How do you stay of course? The other day I was listening to a podcast of a sermon and one key point that was said was, "Your desire to win must be stronger than the obstacles that are set before you." That was music to my ears.  As I look at my current situation, after months of mental and physical exhaustion, sleep deprivation and out right bewilderment, my desire to complete my medical degree is still burning strong. 

In the scriptures, Mark 11:24, "Therefore, I say unto you, What thing soever you desire, when you pray, believe that you shall receive them and you shall have them."  A key point in developing your desire is in believing.  Believing that it is possible.  Believing that when opportunity presents itself, you will be prepared to accept it.  Believing that it is for you to have. Believing when you fall down, you can get back up... Believing that nothing can stop you from obtaining because you have the DESIRE to WIN...

Now that we are in 2013, A year of OPEN DOORS, how strong is your desire to go after your dreams, how strong is your desire to live the life you want, how strong is your desire to see change strong is your desire to help those in need...Desire...Believe...Receive.......Of course, in between the dots is a whole lot of work and preparation...

Now is the time to push a little harder, push with purpose and you will see that your DESIRE to WIN will manifest into you moving towards your destiny TODAY...

Now, go live your dreams....