Mentally Healthy without painful toil...

I am in a great place right now. I completed my clerkship in psychiatry a week ago...and left it with mixed emotions. It seemed that the content came so easily to me. I completed my study material and over 500 questions 2 weeks before the clerkship had ended. I think that was partly because I have not lighten up on my studying habits, as of yet. I'm still studying 7 days a week. My mixed emotions about psychiatry is all good; fostering dialogue of a possible future as a psychiatrist. I found that most mental health issues need medical attention, just as any physical ailment does. Could I bring an awareness to the underserved community? Could I make leaps and bounds progress and getting minorities to seek out help with mental health issues as other ethnic groups? Would I be able to actually help someone with mental issues? Of course, I could. I love helping others no matter what the issues are. I live for that...I'm always looking for the cure all...even though I know there very well may not be a cure all. But, there maybe a way to get someone who is hurting; whether mentally or physically assistance to relieve that pain and get them a better quality of life. That's what practicing medicine is all about. I learned that first had from the experience with my terminally ill husband. Although, a cure was not our goal, but to have a high quality of life was our goal. So, understanding the limitations of practicing medicine is a maturing process. Knowing how I can aid in patient center care is what my goal is no matter what field I ultimately decided to take. I enjoyed working in the field especially in the therapeutic settings. I found that when patients are given the opportunity to express their fears, concerns, and hopes, the end result was collaboration in treatment and patients left the office "feeling better." as they would say. Being mentally healthy is just as critical to life as physical health. It would be the coolest thing to open a clinic that catered to bother mental and physical health...a one stop shop....So, I'm considering applying to internal/family medicine and then do a fellowship in psychiatry. The details to my destiny are unfolding before my eyes...It's interesting that you can start on a journey desiring one thing, the twist and turns experienced will allow you to explore options never imagined. The scripture says, He will make your crooked road straight. In order for that to happen there must be an element of trust, confidence and knowing that what is meant to be will be. I must admit I have been experiencing some anxiety about which direction to choose. It seems that every clerkship I've enjoyed. I don't want to limit my chances for growth, expansion and most of all enjoyment in what I'm doing. My mom has been steadfast in reminding me that my path has always been directed by God. When I'm unsure of which road to take, I submit to prayer and meditation and my answer always is received. I'm getting to that point where I'm ready to let the anxiety go and let my faith and trust in GOD take the wheel...Isn't that funny. I know I have to come to that point when I am tired of the speculation and say, "I surrender. I'm listening to YOUR guidance. I receive YOUR instruction." I know that is what I need to do, but I feel like I'm getting some kind of charge, excitement out of trying to figure this out on my own (that is toiling). But, I know that my destiny will have it's perfect course and no matter how many hours I spend researching residency programs on the internet or how many people I get advise to why they choose their path. I know I will choose correctly...My path has already been chosen for me before the foundation of the earth...My job is to seek wise counsel, to seek out my path according to the Will of GOD for my life...I believe that before me is LIFE and that I will choose LIFE...I'm on the verge of GOD's manifested Glory to shine brightly like the noon day and it there is no turning back. Proverb 10:22 NIV "The blessings of the Lord brings wealth, without painful toil for it." So, as I let my mind rest and I will enjoy my journey to residency match 2016....