No matter how much I desired to be in this space in time, I am so anxious to get this over and done with...I have successfully completed another semester of the most challenging task of my life..and now, It's time to put into action all the wonderful things I've learned of the past two years....But, for some reason, I would like time to stand still. Or I would love if there was a way to get out of taking this USMLE Step exam....Why do I feel this way? Why am I so anxious and nervous about this exam....? Could it be that I know on the other side of it is the key that unlocks my life's mysteries? Could it be that my time has come and I'm about to get everything that I have been blogging about? Could it be just false evidence appearing real? Well, whatever the reason, I feel like I do...There's one thing I know...I will overcome it and conqueror it...I will push through and get everything I've worked so hard for...I was born for this time and this space...I was destined to see this day!
So, no matter what I am feeling, if it is contrary to what I desire, I must push it out of my head and focus on what I want and where I want to go...I can do this...I will do this...I have everything working in my favor and all I have to do is to continue doing what I've been doing. Applying myself, preparing myself...and move forward...
From the beginning of this journey, I longed for this time. I could not wait to get through the class room time and the opportunity to get into the hospitals...Well, I'm here..and I am most anxious about this Step 1 exam....If only there was a way for me to get past this phase and on to the next. I'm here at the door..the door that allows me to cross over to my dream...and I'm stumbling.....So, I have to get a grip, because TIME is TICKING....I have until June 30th to take the exam....but, what a waste of time if I continue to linger..I could take this exam next month and have the whole summer off and enjoy myself...if I procrastinate til June 30th, I will only prolong the inevitable....
So, as time continues to tick for me...pray for me....I am so over this studying stuff...LOL...
Philippians 3:12-13
Press on Toward the Goal
12Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. 13Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead,…
Now, go live your dream!
I came across your blog and really enjoy it! I am a 29yo hospital-based speech therapist who is trying to get into medical school. Thanks for such an encouraging blog!
ReplyDeleteDear 40 year old medical student! I also came across your blog about 3 years ago, and I have to say that you`re a huge inspiration! I was then in my 2nd year of my physiotherapy studies. I was living in a foreign country in central Europe, studying in a language that was not my mother tongue, and learning another language to speak with the patients at the hospitals. I was studying so hard I never had before, we all were. I was ill from several chronicle disorders, but managed to to well with the studies, even though I could never take a "sick day". When my hair was starting to fall off (and I`m a girl..) I was asking myself why I did all of this, when what I really wanted was to get into med school. I felt that I was wasting my time, chasing the wrong dream. Following your blog though, reminded me that things are never too late! It is never too late to chase your true dreams, and everything within limits of life and death is possible if you work hard, have faith in God, and never ever give up! As I the thought of failure scared me more than anything, I fought through and eventually graduated. I`m now a qualified physiotherapist with license to practice, and I finally I decided to go chase my true dream! I`m now taking subjects to qualify for med school, my health has improved extremely! Medicine is the utterly most competitive study to get into in scandinavia, but I know I can make it! And I refuse to give up on this dream! So thank you for sharing from your life as a med student, and thank you for inspiring me to chase my true dream! Also, all the best of luck with your studies!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations.
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to encourage you to trust God. I have been reading your blog from the beginning, and you have always worked so hard. You have done your part, which is all you can do. Now, you must let go(you've studied and probably over studied) and trust God to do His part. Only you and God know what you desire to do, and God is faithful. Take that exam and have your summer of rest! Don't entertain thoughts of doubt, discouragement or anything contrary to the word of God. Remember God is holding you up with His righteous right hand.
ReplyDeletePress on Sister. Things will work for the best for those who have a heart to love God and do God's will. Do not be discouraged for what lies ahead. Just press on in your life and in medicine in faith. Thank you for sharing. I love your verse at the end of this post. God bless you.
ReplyDeleteHello again,
ReplyDeleteIt's been awhile but, you and my life long dream still come to mind after many tick tocks at work.
Though I accepted the promotion in management and let go of my dream of becoming an MD, I am so proud of you.
You will get to the otherside!
I am still pulling for you. I am still rooting for you. I am still praying for you.
...now, go handle that Step 1, because time is ticking.
I probably won't be the first (I wish I was) to do it but, I can't wait to say congratulations doctor (you are that close).