Okay, today meant so much to me. I took my last mini exam EVER; moreover, I was finishing the most challenging 2 years of my life...The intensity started building up yesterday evening...So, I said a prayer to calm my nerves. I tried to get to bed early, but did not get to sleep until 4:30 am. I just didn't feel prepared. This might be the first time ever that I really felt I need more time to study, FOR REAL!
For the past 20 years, I can program myself to wake up at a certain time without an alarm...But, this time I was not taking anything for granted, so I set two alarms. I normally try to get up at least a 2hrs before my exam so, I can review and have a nice breakfast. But, today I turned off the alarm and went back to bed. I finally got up at 7 am in a panic (exam at 8 am), didn't have time to eat...So, I thought I could grab something from The Shacks (a row of local vendors next door to campus)..So, 7:30, I'm walking out the door...get to the Shacks and most of them are still closed...OH NO..I can't go in this exam without eating...Well, there was one vendor open and ready to accommodate..YES....Grabbed an egg sandwich and started my walk up the hill to the Annex for my exam...Okay, I sit down on the benches trying to eat and read over my notes..(last minute cramming..)...I just start getting really NERVOUS...OMG...
I check the board to get my seating assignment...I'm seat A-01..THE FIRST Seat...Okay...I get to my seat and tears start running down my face...I am so nervous...Everything is riding on this last exam...(Flashback...the uphill journey to today)....I managed to say another prayer and gain my composure...And began my test...Okay, I started at the last question first...just to get that one out of the way...A sign of completion and victory for me...Then a peace and a calmness came over me...MY GOD NEVER FAILS...No worries.....NOW!
So, I said all that to say...Have confidence in yourself...If you have done all that you know to do and could have done..rest in that. You have everything you need to succeed. You are well equipped for the task ahead of you....So, don't let fear, intimidation or any other false evidence appearing real STOP YOU!
Now, GO LIVE YOUR DREAM!
Congrats on finishing up!!! You're so committed, Im sure you will do well. And thanks for posting so frequently, keeps me inspired :)
ReplyDeleteThat was an awesome post!! I feel very encouraged after reading this post. Often times, I feel anxiety during exams because of its importance in my career. My mother has always told me to do the things you did. She tells me to most importantly, pray. She also tells me to do all you can do and by any means necessary. It is just a matter of trusting God.
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